My Sweetest Memory in year 2009...

My 1st n oso can said as sweetest memory dat i'd ever had was d day on 15th November till 18th November 2009..

It was d day i had my trip 2 ipoh n Genting..

On 15th,i met my beloved god bro,Aaron..

he brought me 2 shop around ipoh n met his frenz...dat nite v had our dinner of steamboat...

i was so shocked dat they all were small in their size but their food were big as mountain...xP

haha...

bt anyway,

i do enjoy dat nite dinner as v all had fun...

on d nex day,

v woke up at 4am in d morning n prepared ourself 2 d trip 2 genting...

v depart on 5am n reached at 10am...

so,

without wasting anymore time,
v went 2 had fun...

v played outdoor games...

ther was so cold especially after rain...

2 frens of Aaron had won a large teddy bear when they played d throwing rings...

they all were so happy n so do i...

nth much i could express it out but i think i was my best memory i had in 2009...

i love my god bro so much...

he had brought me so much fun during my trip..

although i scolded him not 2 spend so much money on me,

but he insist it coz he said im his bro n he want me 2 hav fun within these days..

so,

he had d responsibility 2 take care of me during dat time...
i felt so sorry 4 spending so much of his money,but,

i promise i would repay him bck whenever i hav a chance...

i love him so much...

n i couldn't affort 2 lose his as i had lose my beloved 1 b4...

i hope our relationship will laz long even im poor...

That's all i would like 2 post 4 d laz day of year 2009...

thank you 4 reading my post n hav a happy new year

take care n b happy always my frennz....

i love u all as well....^^,

How do I feel about her???

I feel that,
she is a very SELFISH girl!!!
The person that I hate the most is a SELFISH person...
I treat her so good just like my good friend...
but she does not...
Just treat me like a stranger that seldom talk...

For me,
I want to share what ever things with friends...
No matter its hard or sweet,
I'm ok with it...

BUT...
She does not like to share...
Sometime I saw her talking with my another friend,
then when I walked toward them,
they stopped d conversation...
When I asked what they are disccussing,
they insist to tell me...

Do they really treat me like friend???

Fine..
Other than this,
everytime when we went to have a meal,
she wouldn't follow..
If not,
she followed,but didn't eat...
Hence,
she walked away alone...
I mean,
HALOO...
if you don't really like to join with us,
then better DON'T!

I HATE PEOPLE LIKE THIS WHO ARE VERY VERY SELFISH!!!!
F*CK THEM OFF!!!!

PEOPLE LIKE THIS DO NOT DESERVE TO BE MY FRIEND!!!


~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

Stimbot nite...

2nite,
i n my classmates all celebrate a small party at KY's house...
jz 2 celebrate our schl holiday...
n oso d time wher v all 1 family get 2gether...
2nite can b said as a gud nite..
i really enjoyed having fun stimboating wit them...
although im tired of my work,
but i do enjoy myself wit all my classmates...
they really crazy n so m i...

but...

im having a tough day throughout 2day wholeday....
i drank half glass of beer...
i told myself not 2 drink beer..
but i couldn't control myself...
im 2 upset...
i wanna 4got those sad things in my mind...
im hoping dat my mind can b like computers wher they can delete wat eva things dat they dun wan.....

but...
2 bad i cant...
haiz...
i jz drank half glass of it...
not so effectiv 4 me 2 drunk...
i tot i wanna b drunk so dat wat eva stress dat in my mind will gone...
but i din drunk at all...
jz feelin sleepy....

my frenz r havin fun outside wit KY's Wii game...
sum of them were on9 web cam chattin wit YL...
YL couldn't make it here wit us coz her parents wun allow her 2 join...
so,
sum of my frens were chattin wit her happily...
im stayin inside KY's room coz i wan a moment of silent,
wher i can relax my mind...
n calm myself down....
if i keep on laughing wit them,
but feelin hard inside my heart,
i feel veli suffer...

i wanted 2 cry alone inside KY's room...
but im afraid dat they will saw it...
so,
i tried 2 tahan...

veli hard 4 me 2 pass my days evryday...
haiz...

who can help me??

i dun think any1 can....
haiz...


~sAd EmO eLLe~

im so disappointed on u...

2day is his 20th birthday...
at beginning,
I think I could give him a surprise...
I wished him last night few minutes after 12am....
I told him that I love him so much...
but...
He did not reply my message...
May be is because he is busy or his phone out of credit...
Fine...
Previously,
he said he wanted to come to my place...
He said he wanted to cut his hair and he asked me to bring him there...
so,
till today,
I waited his sms...
I rushed back home quickly after my class even I went to eat with my classmates...
I rushed myself very rush...
I thought that I would be late to meet him...
Im so tired during that time...
but,
i thhought that i will be happy when I see him...
but....


he did not turn up...
Not even a single notice or a sms...
I asked myself how silly am I...
Put so much hope,
end up with so much disappointment...

Just like what chinese people always say,
"希望越高，失望根加高"..

And now I understood this sentence...
I'm really stupid...
Really really stupid...
I think,
today shall be the last day I be with him...
I don't want to continue this anymore...
I'm really hurt...
I'm really suffer...

Everyday I could not have a nice rest...
Keep on thinking of him...
But...

I don't think he got think of me...
I'm really upset...

Really upset...
If I know this will happen earlier,
I wouldn't on with him already...

I think,
I'm not suitable for him...
I think is not the time yet for me to have a partner...
I think God does not want me to be on this route...
But why is GOD making me like this???
Why God creates me to have no feelings towards girls????!!!!
WHY??!!!!

I'm so confuse right now...
I think,
I'm gonna be single...
Till I'm 25...
or...
may be for the rest of my life....


Remember...
Today shall be the last day...
Tomorrow is a new day,
where he will go his way,
and I will go on my way...
Its up to him whether he wants to be a friend of mine,
or,
just be a stranger to me...

That's all...

Good bye 2(3)+3(7)+3(4)+3(2)...

The End...



~sAd EmO eLLe~

What the hell is happening to you all???!!!

I treat you all so good...
I tried to treat you all like my best friend...
but you all didn't notice it...
instead,
you all like do not bother about me...
I care for you all,
but you all seems ignoring my present..
I'd put my love in my friendship,
but you all seems do not like it...

For me,
love is not only for lovers..
For me,
love is for all the person that i loved..
besides my lover,
I also can love my friends and my god bros..
please be open minded..
don't be so sacarstic...

if you all hate me is because that I'm PLU,
then i suggest you all better F*CK OFF from my life!
although I'm PLU,
but I'm NOT an "Ah Kua"!!
PLU is just PLU..
its different from "Ah Kua"...
I am who I am...
if you all can't accept it,
then better don't be my friend...
I don't need a person who don't trust their friend!

THE END!



~MR. & MRS. eLLe~

i'd gone mad...

before edit..



after...




q">.<"p
((+++))")hehe..

~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

Cry on my Shoulder..T.T

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you"re feeling blue
If you"re away from love and you"re alone
If you call your friends and nobody"s home
You can run away but you can"t hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there"s a destiny
The best things in life
They"re free

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you"re feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There"s a place in heaven where we"ll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your sideI promise you
I"ll never hide

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you"re feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do..

Unbreak my heart

Don't leave me in all this pain,

Don't leave me out in the rain..

Come back and bring back the smile,

Come and take these tears away...

I need your arms to hold me now,

The night is so unkind..

Bring back the night when I held you beside me..



Unbreak my heart..

Say you'll love me again..

Undo this hurt you caused,

when you walked out the door,

And walked out of my life...

Uncry this tears..

I cried so many nights...

Unbreak my heart...



Take back that sasd word good bye,

Bring back the joy to my life...

Don't leave me here with these tears,

Come and kiss that pain away...

I can't forget the day you left,

Life is so unkind...

And life is so cruel without you here beside me...



Unbreak my heart..

Say you'll love me again..

Undo this hurt you caused,
when you walked out the door,
And walked out of my life...
Uncry this tears..
I cried so many nights...
Unbreak my heart...



Don't leave me in all this pain,

Don't leave me out in the rain,

Bring back the nights when I held you beside me...



Unbreak my heart..
Say you'll love me again..
Undo this hurt you caused,

when you walked out the door,

And walked out of my life...

Uncry this tears..

I cried so many,many nights...

Unbreak my heart...



Unbreak my heart,

Come back and say you love me...

Unbreak my heart,

Sweet darlin'...

Without you my life just can't go on...

Can't go on~~~~~

im back~

im back again wit him...

but...

i dunno wheter isit he really stil wan me...

d oni thing i hav is jz hope....

hoping he can cum bck 2 me like last time...

im really miss him...

i love him...

n..

i still wan him 2 b wit me....

haiz...

pls cum bck 2 me like laz time....

my lover,

2(3)+3(7)+3(4)+3(2)...

~MR. & MS. eLLe~

i dunno whether m i misunderstood anot...

jz nw i texted him...

asking him hw is life???

he said,

like dat lor...

den,

i asked,

y he wanna break wit me..i jz wanna knw d reason...

he said,

he didn't break wit me...

(o.O)??

im so confuse nw...

haiz..

i dunno wat 2 do...

but i still luv him...

haiz....

i dunno whether shud i continue wit him or,

jz break up...haiz....

~MR. & MS. eLLe~

I HATE ALL OF THEM!!!!

y r u all treating me like dat???!!!!
wat mistake i'd made on u???!!!
izit bcoz dat im plu???
so u all treat me like dat???!!!!

im plu so wat???
u all cant accept it ma dunid lo!!!
i dunid a fren who do not deserve 2 b my fren!!!!
f*ck them off from my view!!!
ppl like them do not deserve any respect frm me!!!!!

~MR. & MS. eLLe~

HEADACHE~~~!!!!!!!

dunno y my head so damn pain 2day...
since i woke up till i finish my class oso still so pain...

i think is bcoz of d bloddy weather which is veli hot 2day...
haiz...
felt like almoz pengsan d...
so damn hot...
dry...
n warm...
jz like d feelin of keeping urself in microwave oven...
walau eh...
haiz...

wan go hav a nap nw...
so,
2 b continue.........xP

~MR. & MS. eLLe~

i dunno hw 2 say...

evry1 is like trying 2 avoid me...
especially my elder god bro in my work place...
sumtimes,
i felt like he dun really treat me as his younger bro..
coz

he neva call me as his bro...
n evrytime oso i started a conversation wit him 1st...
he did not cum n talk 2 me 1st wan...
even i m d 1 who owits sms him when im worry bout him...
but sumtimes he even not reply me...
haiz...

i dun really knw whether is he really treating me as his bro or as his fren?
or may b a stranger??

i jz wan a concern frm him...
i jz wan a lil care frm him...
dats all i wan frm him....
nth much...
jz wanna b his lil bro which v can care 4 each other...

evrytime i saw he is moody,
i asked him wat happened..
he jz tell me nth's worng...
i can c he is pretending nth's worng...
i saw he told moz of his frenz,
but he dun wanna tell me...

haiz...
i dunno whether shud i stop our brotherhood relationship wit him anot...
or may b is bcoz of im thinking 2 much???
haiz....
dunno la...
jz c hw is his reaction...
i hope he read my dis post...

but i knw he will neva read it...
coz..
i dun think he will even understand wat i wrote here...

~MR. & MRS eLLe~

i jz cut my hair~

dis hairstyle is designed by me..
cut by a hairdresser near my area...
her cuttings skills really great...
she can cut exactly d same as wat im thinking even i din show her hw it looks like....
really thx 2 her...
jz lov my hair...xP

~MR. & MS. eLLe~

PESSBAND @ G Hotel~

我真的是太没用了。。haiz...

haiz...
Today is the day which I'd made such a big mistake in my life...
I'd forgotten my 1st and my beloved younger god brother's 16th birthday...
I really useless...

haiz...
I mean,
how can I forget such thing like dat??
I'm really forgetful now a day...
I don't know why...
I tend 2 forget things easily...
even just now during in class,
my friend asked me to help him photostat a music score...
if he didn't remind me just now,
I really forget about it already..


This doesn't matter...
The most unforgivable is dat,
I'd forgotten his birthday..
I don't even wish him...

haiz...
How useless am I to be his brother...
I'd made him disappointed on his birthday...

Haiz...
I'm so sorry di...
I really didn't mean to forget about it...
really sorry...

haiz....

























~MR. & MS. eLLe~

my closest frenz...

my closest frenz,

r not my gud fren nor my best fren...

d oni person who r closest 2 me is my god bros...

no 1 elz can share my pain...

no 1 elz can b my listener...

no 1 elz can cum n help me when i nid their help...

no 1...

but oni my lil god bro can do so...

he is my best wan...

d 1 who i can trust...

d 1 dat i love more than my lover...

d 1 i care d moz as i treat them as my real bro...

he is my best bro...

i luv u di~~

~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

今天是很高兴的一天~

2day,
i felt veri happy...
i celebrated my god bro's b'day...
althou v jz started our brotherhood relationship not long,
but im so happy wit him coz he looked so happy jz nw...

at 1st i dunno wat 2 giv him as a b'day present coz i still dunno him so well...
i was thinking 2 buy him a necklace wit his sur name on d locket...
but i cant find dat word...
then,
i change my mind...
plan 2 buy a ring 4 him...
but all d sizes were 2 small...==lll

nex,
i planned 2 buy him a horoscope hp chain...
but i'd 4gotten wats d horoscope 4 d month of october...o.Olll....
finally,
i'd made a decision of buying him a belt...
i dunno whether he likes it anot...
its quite fahionable coz i knw he likes 2 looked cool n handsum...
i think dat belt will suit him...
but dunno whether he likes it anot lo..
haiz...
cant do anything d la...
laz minit things ma...haiz...
i jz not happy wit dat nia lo...

jz hoping dat he will like d belt i gave him la...
i jz wanna treat him as my real bro as much as hw much love my bro...
hope he wun mind bout my dis kinda attitude...

~MR. & MS. eLLe~

2day is a new day 4 me~~

2day,

shall b a new day for me...

i woke up in d morning,

wit a happy smile,

i woke up in d morning,

wit a happy mood...

planning 2 start on a new life,

jz like a chick jz hatched out frm d egg...

i woke up in d morning,

i saw d happy sun....

manatau....

is rainny day...-.-lll..

haha...

i wanna 4get all those sad memories...

n start a new life again 2day...

on the 1st day of October....

~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

i think dis will b d end d...

nothing much 2 say d...

1 sentence,

Elle is GAME OVER!!!!

no mood...

jz sad...

n i dunno y....

im so stupid...

i swear it will not happen again....

Haiz...我也不知道我自己在想什么...

haiz...

dis few days veli moody...
later happy,

later sad..

later moody...

haiz...

sumtimes i oso veli confuse...

but i dunno whether am i very annoying??

sumtimes i oso felt dat..

but i dunno y...

my heart is so hard...

if i din contact him,

i'll very miss him...

haiz...

but if i keep on contacting him,

im afraid dat i disturb him...

scared he dun like...

haiz....

wat shud i do???

~SaD EmO eLLe (o.O)~

so damn tired...

haiz..
jz tired of working whole day...
work,study,work....
my daily routine....
veli tired...
haiz...

~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

im so happy with him~~~!!!!!

hahaha...
im so damn happy with him nw...
i finally knw bout him d...
i promise not 2 let him down...
n i love him with my own true heart...
thank God 4 giving me dis chance...
even i'd broke Your rule...
but u still allow me 2 stay....
thank You....
n thx my dear~
520~~

2(3)+3(7)+3(4)+3(2)


~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

EmO

I take this knife

right to my wrist

A drop of water

lands on my mark

My life so painful

to keep on going

I give in

and feel woozy

I wish my love

to those who knew me

And keep on living

not like me...

~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

I dun wanna lose him!!!!!!

why?????!!!!

i wanna knw why???!!!!
why he suddenly treat me till like dis???

im really upset rite nw...

since laz nite...

till nw...

he seldom reply my msg d....

izit gonna b d end??

pls!!!!!

i dun wanna end dis so fast!!!

pls!!!

i gave myself at least 3 months 2 b wit him...

but...

haiz...

nw gonna end like dis???

i dun wan...

i really like him n i really dun wan 2 lose him...

y is he doin dis 2 me???

WHY???!!!!!

~ELLE~a.k.a. GAME OVER!!!!

1st time bcum so damn emo style!!!

jz lovin it..^^,

~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

My 1st time using Photoshop 2 edit pictures...xP

dunno~

2day,
dunno wat 2 post...
i jz felt dat 2day i veli happy...
dunno y..
but jz happy..

i still miss him...
but nvm la..
as long as he likes me,
i miss him till i pengsan oso i dun mind..
wakakaka...
gud nitez my frenz...hehe..
n oso gud nite my dear..
muax...
love ya...^^,

~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

im so sorry bout dat...T.T

laz nite,
i was very exhausted...
due 2 my work...
worked full day,
10hrs...
so damn tired..
n not in mood...
dats y i din on9...





dis doesn't matter...
d thing is dat,
i put all my anger on him...
i replied his msg rudely...
i dun even knw wat am i thinking during dat time...
i jz miss him alot..
waiting 4 his reply...
but he din...
i sent him an anger msg..
he still din reply me...



i was so damn sad bout it...
at nite i culdn't slep well...
coz kept thinking of him...
i really miss him...
i cant affort 2 loose him like i'd already lose 1...


i wan him in my life...
wat i wan is his happyness...
i love him so much...
hoping he will knw hw i feel on him...





missing him every nite..
and hoping he will b here by my side...
i so regret wat i did laz nite...
haiz...


so sorry bout dat dear..
i love u so much....



miss ya...









~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

1st time being a model!!!!

Today is my 1st time being a model 2 b shot 4 our current assignment project...
usually i owits took other's pics...
but dis time i myself been a model 4 others 2 shoot...
at first i was nervous n shy..

but in d end,
i felt so hot n my "form" sudah cum liao..
haha...
fell so syok taking foto...
although its tiring,
but its fun..
i really happy 2day's photoshooting...
i wanna thx Suzan 4 taking d photo 4 me...
as well as my another model,Xiao Mi(our 2nd sis),
n oso all our group members n oso classmates...

really thx 4 their co-operations...^^,

~The End~

i love u~~~~

i jz wanna tell u hw much i love u..
i wanna thank u 4 spending ur time wit me on dat nite...
i really miss dat moment alot...

i hope v can hav dat kinda feelin like dat nite again...
i love u so much..
till i'llmiss u evryday if i din c u a day..

i miss ur lips,
i'll miss ur kisses...
i miss ur hand,
i'll miss ur hugs...
i miss ur xxxx,
i'll miss it alot..

i miss u very much...
n
i put all my love on u...
hoping our relationship can last long...
i knw even dis kinda relationship won't laz long,
but i will still try 2 maintain it...
bcoz....




i LoVe u~


my lover,
2(3)+3(7)+3(4)+3(2)~~
5201314!!!!

~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

bcoz im plu...

many of my frenz said,

"its so unbelieveable u r dis kinda ppl...i really cant believe dis..u doesn't like dat frm my point of view...y u wanna b like dat??? izit dat sum1 hurt u b4 laz time and caused u 2 bcum like dat????"

i said no...coz its me my ownself..

i told him dat i will change bck 2 normal when im 25...

bcoz im wat i m nw...

n i dun care wat ppl talking anything bad bout me...

coz they aren't me...

they dunno hw r my feelings...

i knw wat 2 do when im 25...

jz dun worry bout me...

wat i only hope frm my frenz is dat,

i really hope u all dun mind bcoz im dis kinda person...

i jz hope u all can jz treat me like a normal fren n dun think bout im dat kinda person...

jz my only hope...

if no 1 can accept it,

den i rather b alone in my life n search 4 my own happiness in my life...

~The End~

am i suppose 2 b happy??

i dunno whether shud i b happy bout dat anot...

my fren told me wit my look like dis,

ther r many gals will fall on me...

but,

i think im not dat kinda person as he tot...

i m a person dat no 1 can tot off thru my outlook and my attitude..

till 2day,

sum1 told me dat,dat person admire me...

i was shocked at 1st...

but,

i oso felt dat i hav sum feelin towards dat person...

but i dun really sure shud i accept or not...

if i accept,

i knw dis kinda relationship wun laz long...

but if i dun,

i think i hurt myself n i hurt dat person...

eventhou i'd been told dat i looks hansum,

and dat person likes me...

but i dun think im as hansum as his tot...

coz photos r never real in nw adays...

im happy coz ther is sum1 who likes me since so long d...

but im still worry...

haiz...

so,

am i suppose 2 b happy???

~The End~

~

Ther is no point appologising if u continue 2 make d same mistake..

dont u knw d things dat u made was jz a waste of time???
wat for u appologise 2 me if u still making ur bloody f*cking mistake???
go f*ck urself la if u think u r rite...
i tell u i hate d kinda ppl like u!!!!!

FINALLY!!!

after so many days,
2day is d day i neva thought of him..
i felt like really gave on him d..
i think i did...
im totally nw dun hav anymore feel on him d..
i think i shud leave it aside,
n look foward,
as my life is still goes on...
eventhou im not dat handsum,
but i blive dat looks dont really important..
so,
althou i found dat ther r ao many ppl leng zai than me dis few days,
but,
i still move on like dis even i felt jeluz bout them..

d oni thing i knw is dat,
God made me dis way bcoz They wan me 2 look like dis n i will take dis as a challange frm d Almigthy....

~The End~

STOMACH KILLIN ME!!!

2day whole day dunno y my stomach cari pasai wit me again...
haiz...
dunno whether izit may b bcoz of yesterday de chendol ah...
till nw oledi 12.28 a.m. liao still pain...
masih berpulas-pulas lagi...
go toilet shit,
oni fart came out nia..xP
shit dun wan cum out..
they said 2day off day...
so,
had 2 wait tmr oni cum out...
swt.(=.=lll)
wakakaka...
but seriously,
its really pain!!!

~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

im still confuse...@.@"

i still not sure bout myslef...
whether m i still crush on dat person...
sumtimes i felt angry bout dat person,
but sumtimes i miss dat person...
but im sure dat dat person doesn't knw bout it..
haiz...
i really confuse nw...
i dunno whether shuld i let it go,
or shud i try till i got d key???
haiz...

sad~~~~

EmO eLLe (o.O)~

so pain!!!

haiz...
dunno y dis 2 days my stomach not feelin well...
may b i ate d wrong things...
haiz...

~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

He has gone...

Today,

is d day wher my best pal is moving 2 KL permanently...

oso is d day dat i felt very upset...

dis morning i went to send him...

b4 dat,

v had our laz breakfast wit him...

ther were me and KY nia...

after dat v took a numba of photos wit him...

later on,

Yens arrived...

n i took her photo wit him...

dat time was d time wher d bus had arrived...

v took it rushly...

den,

when he went in2 d bus,

my eyes starts 2 cry..

i dun wan d others 2 c it,

so i tried 2 tahan my self...

when d bus started 2 depart,

i cant hold it anymore...

my tears start dripping out...

lucky he din c dat...

but 2 bad d other 2 of my frenz saw...

it was so embarresing,

a guy crying..

but i dun mind so much...

coz i oni cried 4 d 1 i really loved...

i neva cried even i broke wit my ex,

but,

if any of my frenz who r leaving me,

i think i culd cry hardly in my dark room...

althou v had separated far apart,

but his soul is owits in my heart..

jz like my best pal JC,

he has gone....

~The End~

very upset..T.T

i felt very upset...
tmr is d laz time im gonna meet 1 of my gud fren...
he is leaving penang,
n he said he wil neva cum bck anymore...

i felt very upset...
coz i tak sampai hati 2 leave him...
i dun wan him 2 leave...
but he insists wanna leave...
i hav no choice...
i cant change his decicion...

i felt very upset...
i will definitely miss him alot...
although he is not my lover,
but he is 1 of my gud fren,
who i cares alot bout him....

i felt very upset...
i feel like wanna cry...
i dunno whether i could cry anot during tmr...
but i dun wanna cry infront of him...
nth elz i can do,
but jz dripping my tears round my cheek...

i really felt very upset....
pls dun leave....
my best pal,
Edmond Wong



~sAd EmO eLLe (o.O)~

i dunno wat 2 do...

im still thinking..

whether shall i continue or shall i not...

i cant affort 2 lose...


losing sum1 which i like,

is very hard for me to do so...



i knw i dun hav a single chance,

but i still cant giv up on it...

can any1 tell me wat shud i do?

no 1 can tell me...

not even d almighty does...



~sAd EmO eLLe (o.O)

Girlish

sumtimes when v talk bout sum1 elz,
v felt happy...
but do u knw dat,dat person is feeling d pain in their heart...
so,
i wanna tell u all dat,
sum ppl keep saying me girlish....
but i dun mind bout dat...
sum call me "pretty",
sum call me "handsum"...
sum even call me as "jie jie"(sister)...
but i dun mind at all...
wat i really hate is dat ppl callin me "ah pon","ah kua",sissy n wat eva shit isit la...
pls ask them fuck their own mother's pussy if they wanna call me dis..
they dun really knw bout me n they wanna simply call me like dat 4 d sake of their fun...
ask them go fuck their mother la!!!
dat wan even more fun..

~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

2day hav nth 2 post...
coz nth happened 2day...
jz dat veli boring evryday oso doin same stuffs...
anyway,
thx 4 reading my blog o~

~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

I thought...

I thought he is...
but he is not...

I thought he likes...

but he does not...

I thought he can be...

but he cannot...

I thought he will...

but he will not...

I thought i can be happy,

but I cannot...

why am I so stupid?

I am I thinking about that?

Why?

Because...

I thought I like...

~The End~

I was wrong...

2day,
im not dat happy...
woke up in d morning,
went to work..

not enough slept laz nite,
so working blur blur...
went 2 kolej late,
but teacher din scold..
she asked us 2 bring laptop,
but neva ask us 2 preapare d things she nid b4 dat...

so,
i done nth during d class...
such a waste of time...
worst,
wasted my effort bringing my laptop here and ther...

schl ends,
went eat..
appointed wit frens,
end up din met...

so dissapointed...

so depress....

and. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .




so sad.....


~The End~

The most suffer things i'd ever faced...

since d 1st day i entered my institution,
i saw d eyes of a person......
looking deep into my eyes...
my nerves goes crazy,
my heart goes fast,
my mind gone mad....
i dunno y it suddenly hapens on me.....


few weeks later,
v started 2 talk and v became frenz...
dis happened during d 1st outing dat been organised in my institution...
v startded 2 talk,
v started 2 make jokes..
i started 2 make fun of my self,
dat person started 2 laugh...

d laughter,
makes me feel so comfortable....
as if dat i was d 1 who r laughing...
i dunno y,
but its fun...

few months had passed in a blink of eyes..
as v get closer wit each other,
i got a comfort frm dat person,
i felt d warmness throughout myself...

i hav a strong feelin upon dat person,
but i can barely felt dat i m not in d heart,
of dat person instead,
ther is sumting,
had blocked d entrance of me towards d space of d heart...

evryday,evry nite,
i m sad....
staying alone ther,
in the darkness,
at d corner,
wher ther is no single light,
shall shine n set me free...

now,
day by day,
my heart getting harder...
like a venom,
rushing in,
bringing d pain and d sorefulness,
killing my mind,
my soul...
but,
ther is no 1 knws bout it...

yet,
i can do nth,
but,
only wait 4 d light,
2 set me free frm d darkness,
n shall allow me,
to enter,
the place wher my joys n happiness were stored...
as im still waiting,
4 d chance even i'd broke d law,
of d almighty.....


~The End~

My Brother's b'day

2day,30th of june,is d day of my bro's bday...
i felt so bad coz i cant manage 2 giv him a present...
laz nite when d clock reached 12am,i'd 4gotten 2 wish him coz i was watching d America Next Top Model..
haiz...
but i had made him a bday wish card by myself..
i hope he will like it la...
coz i cant do any other things 4 him d coz i cant affort 2 buy him anything as i had 2 save my expenses 4 my study fees...
but i really wanna giv him sumthing..
so,
i made him dis card...i done dis card wit my full feelings n efforts...
nth much jz hope he will like dis card...




~The End~

D laz day of my "Journey"...

so sorry 4 not posting my blog 4 so long...
2day's blog is about past few days ago which was on d 19 of june...
duringdat day was my schl band concert day...
ther,
i hav been happy n sad 2gether...
d happy is dat,
1 of my fren frm taiping is cuming 2 watch my concert performance...
im very happy wit him bcuz he willing 2 cum all d way frm his hometown 2 here jz 2 watch my schl band performance...
so,
i bought a rm20 tiket reserved 4 him...
durin dat time,i planned 2 pass 2 him by myself..
but due 2 d shortage of time..
so,
i pass d tiket 2 1 of my teacher incharge at d tiket counter ther..
i wrote my fren's name n my name behind d tiket...
but 1 thing i dun understand is dat hw can d teacher incharge ther mistaken given d tiket 2 other person????
its written ther so big my name n my fren's...
den my fren told me dat d teacher sold him a rm10 tiket...
WAT DA FUCK MAN???!!!
hw culd dis happen???
dats means,
they untung my rm20 buta buta n i jz rugi like dat...
i told d incharge few days after d concert..
but ther is no respond...
not even a single respond...
i really disappointed of their work...
fine..dat wan i tried 2 ignore...

on d nex day,
was d day wher d schl principal retirement day...
during dat nite i helped them 2 perform...
during d rehearsal time,
i asked d 1 incharge whether wat songs will b played..
he said jz d soft songs n jz a few of short songs frm d concert list...
den i planned jz 2 bring my soprano sax instead of bass cl,coz its not convinient 4 me 2 change d instrument during dat time...
but,
when v reached d hotel,
my instructor scolded me 4 not bringing bass cl...
i kena marah buta buta again...
so nvm,
i tried 2 ignore again...
i played d trumpet part during dat nite...
after a while,
1 of d trumpetter went bck early..n dat guy was 1 of a gud trumpet player...after he went bck,
d instructor suddenly bcum so polite 2 me asking me 2 help d trumpetters 2 play their solo parts...
wat da heck??
at 1st scold,den suddenly b so polite...
in other word dat can b said is dat im being used...

after dat nite,
i promise i will neva serve 4 them ANYMORE!!!!!

THE END!

~sAd EmO eLLe (o.O)~

Ipoh trip2

2day(7/7/09),
v woke up at 7.30am coz v had been ordered 2 check out at 9am...
so,
v took our bath n clear up our stuffs...
then,
v had our breakfast...
i ordered curry mee...
it was so damn nice n much much nicer than d penang wan...
my fren ordered wantan mee...
dat mee was totally diffrent frm wat v usual ate de wantan mee...
it was spicy n taste so gud...
mmmm...
i really like ipoh foods...
they r really delicious n better than penang wan...

1 thing special bout ther is dat ppl ther doesnt knw hw 2 speak in hokkien...
moz of them spoke cantonese...
funny part was dat,
my frenz all they dunno hw 2 speak in cantonese...
n they dunno hw 2 order their food...
so,
i helped them 2 order n they r really funny n cute...xP

my 1st tym been 2 ipoh was really leaving me a memorable journey...
i really wanna thx God dat i own my own camera...
i took lots of foto ther...
bout 200++pics i took at ther...
it was really great...
im really miss d ipoh when v left....
very sweet moment v ad ther...

thx God..

lazy type d la...
thx 4 reading anyway...xP

Ipoh trip

yesterday(6/6/09) was my 1st time went 2 ipoh...
due 2 PESSBAND concert performance...
it was a successfull concert...
after concert,
v went 2 hav our dinner...
ther v kep eating till d nex day...
at 1st,
they ordered char hor fun...
den v ma eat lo...
eat half way,
cum ee foo mee...
den eat again...
den later cum fried vegies...
walao...
almoz full d...
den cum fried rice!!!!
walao...
v cant manage 2 finish it d...
end up no ppl eat...
v jz eat coz itz all free...
sponsored by d ipoh ppl ther...
they r so kind 2 us...
they willing 2 spend more money 4 us 2 eat...

not finished yet...

after d dinner,
v went 2 another kopitiam...
ther,
d adults they all ordered they beers...
while v teenagers enjoying their famous mixed fruits wit ais kacang...
it was really marvelous!!!!
by d tym v finished our dessert,
v all went bck 2 our inn...
my room had 4 ppl including me...
v were chatting all nite n v ran evrywher along d corridor of d inn untill the owner of d inn complain us...xP

dat time was erally midnite bout 3am+++..
ther were 1 tym when v ran up d corridor 2 find another of my frenz,
v heard d sound of lady screaming eroticly...
it muz b sum1 making love inside...
it was very loud...
after v heard,
v ran bck quickly 2 our room...
n started 2 laugh like mad dogs...
d reception called our room phone n complain us...
but v were pretendin as if v were slepin half way d...
it was really great nite in ipoh...
by d tym v slept was 4.30am++...

(TBC.....)

Selfish

As i m nw getting older,
i had gone thru many things n many moment whether it is sweet,
or it is bitter...
as i knw,
frenships r veli important 4 me...
as im treating them jz like my own brothers n sisters...
but 1 thing dat im really dun like n dun understand bout it is dat,
y all human beings muz hav a SELFISH attitude in them????

sumtimes i m thinking dat m i stupid or m i sucker???
wateva they nid my help,
i help them...
but when its d day dat i nid their help,
they r trying 2 avoid it...abo leh,
they help,but their face expressions tell me a "NO" in their mind...
im really fed up wit dis kinda frenz...
sumtimes i do think y m i doing so much 4 them??
n yet they treated me like dat...
im really mad of dis already...

sumtimes i think i dun wanna bother them...
but i culdn't do dat...
my heart feels uncomfortable if i did dat...
no 1 can understand my feelings...
they jz do as they like n gain wat they want...
but they do not think bout the others....
wtf man???

i dun wan dis kinda ppl 2 b my fren...
i think frm nw on,
i will oni treat gud 2 d pe rson who treated me gud as well..
i will follow bck d theory dat i used laz 3yrs ago as it was,
"i oni respect d person who respects me"...
n dats d end of story...
ppl who do not respect me does not deserve any respect frm me!!!!
u wanna mess wit me,
i'll mess wit u!!!!

God bLess..

~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

Thank You

i would like 2 thank for thoz who went 2d PESSBAND performance laz saturday..
thx alot 4 ur support...
v will try 2 make it better in future performances...^^,

~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

PESSBAND concert on the 16th of May 2oo9!!!!

elo ther...
our Penang State Symphonic Band a.k.a. will b havin a concert detailed as followed:-

Date :16-May-2oo9
Time :7.30pm
Venue :Dewan Sri Penang
Ticket Price: RM10

interested???
can owits contact me at elletts_91@hotmail.com
it will b a veli nice concert during dat nite...
if not interested,
pls help me 2 pass around 2 ur frenz who r interested...
ur kindness r highly appreciated...
tq...

p.s.:dis is for penang ppl oni...if non-penang ppl oso owitz welcum...jz 2 inform dat dis concert is located at penang...tq^^,

~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

Sien but quite Enjoyable..xP

2day is my kolej's photography lesson...
1 thing dat im sien about is dat oni me in my class who do not hav a camera..zzzzz...
sumore v r travellin along d whole Campbell Streets,Muntri Streets n Jln Masjid Kapitan...
n not 2 4get at Kwan Yin Teng oso..xP
so tired walking whole day...
d weather suddenly hot,suddenly rain like mad dogs n cats..xP
it makes my throat so dry n pain nw...haiz...

but,

all those r quite enjoyable...
coz i enjoy folo whole group travellin around d town area...
i culd hav d chance 2 talk n b closer 2 my frens they all...
n im really happy dat they r my frenz nw...
v talk n laugh all da way long d streets dat mentioned...
i really like them as my frenz...
eventhou im tired of walking,
but i enjoy foolin myself wit them...
dis is my 1st time i made frenz so ezily n i njoy wit them...

while v were travellin n taking photos,
d weather suddenly rain heavily...
v all rushed into a old so call muzium-house stayed n took photos ther...

(shorten d stories...)

after dat,v went 2 a kopitiam bside d house mentioned which r located at Queen Street..
after v ate,
v started 2 depart bck 2 our kolej...
v rest ther for bout few mins n den evry1 went home...

BUT,

i n few of my classmates v had decided 2 go 4 a movie...xP
at 1st,
v planned 2 watch Coming Soon...
but by dat time v reached ther its oledi 1.45pm..
d mv started at 1.40pm...
so,
i told them 2 wait 4 d cuming time which is at bout 5.10pm...
but sum of my frenz they culdn't stay till dat late...
so,
v broke in2 2 groups...
1st groups went in n watch Coming Soon while me n d another group waited till 3.10pm 2 watch X-Men Origins Wolverine...

(shorten d stories again...)

after dat,
all of us jiu BALIK KAMPUNG liao...
hahahahaha....
n dis ends of my 2day diary-Sien but quite Enjoyable..i luv u all my frenz...muax!!!! ^^,

haiz...

i was sad on d past friday(10/4/09),
u wanna knw y??
it was a long story...

i jz made a new fren on d same week of d mentioned date..
n on dat friday was his laz day of work...
i was sad bcoz im afraid dat i culdn't meet him anymore..
i dunno y m i so sad even v jz made fren...
may b is bcoz dat i admire him...
i knw dis sounds crazy,
but for me is jz normal...

but during dat time,
i think i din accompany him a moment,
he was angry of me...
i went n talk 2 him,
n he insisted me...
due 2 dat,
i hav no mood 2 eat...n dat time was 5pm+

den later on,
when i bck 2 work...
at bout 7.30+pm,
he called me ask me 2 go 2 the loo...
dat time is was so nervous..
i tot u will gonna scold me...
but he din...
n he talked 2 me nicely...

at nite,
after work,
i sms him n told him wat eva im dissatisfied wit him...
n dat time i was so mad...
i dun even knw wat im doin...
after dat,
he din msg me d...
i think i'd mad him disappointed on his laz day of work..
but during d time b4 i slept,
i sms him my laz msg...
i appologise 2 him n i hope he culd 4giv me.....(T.T)

Condom joke

1day,ther is a child asking his dad a question...

Son:Dad,may i ask u a question???

Dad:Yes son.Of course.wWat do u wanna ask??

Son:May i knw wat is a condom???

Dad:(MY GOODNESS..hw m i gonna crap 2 dis kid??)))
erm....its sum kinda candy which looks like a lollipop...

Son:owh...MOM!!!!! CAN I HAV RM1 TO BUY CONDOM???!!!

Dad: !!!!!

Cold joke

Ali:Heys Baba,i got some thing to tell you!

Baba:Better not! i know you are gonna trick me.i know that today is april fool,so,for sure you are gonna trick me...

Ali:No no no!!! Please don't said like that. i really got somthing urgent wanna tell you..

Baba:Ok..if you really tricked me,then you will get it from me..ok,tell me..what is that so urgent??

Ali:Today is April Fool...xP

Baba:@#$%^&*!!!!!!!!




That's all folks...
thx 4 readin...^^,

~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

me..

haiz...
nw oni jz started blogging..dunno wat 2 say...
haiz...
nvm la...
i'll try write sumting la...
haiz...
no idea sumore...xP

ok...
wanna talk bout me...myself..
lol...
kk...
me,
can considered veli frenly..but im afraid of making frenz wit others...
but i dunno y n hw i can ezly started 2 make frenz when i started work at Pacific KOMTAR..
i still remembered d 1st fren i made is Chew Ho..he is a charming boy who is 1yr younger than me...
but he is abit stim stim(sorry 2 said dat ya..but its fact...xD)but actually he is a gud guy...

later on,
i oso started 2 make frenz wit joey...
n then his fren vernon...
n later on is ah teng n ah wai..
so weird is dat i started d conversation n shook hand wit them 1st instead of them 1st..xP
dis is wat im surprise of...coz till so far,
i neva started any conversation wit others b4 making frenz...
but dis is so diffrent...xP

but anything oso,
i treat my frenz all like my own brothers sisters..
i cared bout their feelins,
i like 2 share their emotions wit me..
coz im feelin hard 2 c my frenz unhappy or upset..

ther is 1 time 1 of my fren(name shall not b mentioned) he argued wit his partner..
dat time i ask him 2 share d pain wit me...
coz i dun wan him 2 suffer alone...
i belive dat after a person express it out,they will felt much more better...
so,
dis is wat im trying 2 do...
haiz...
but dat time,
i feel d pain 2...
but i think dats worth it i did it 4 my frenz...
coz i love them so muc n i cant affort 2 loose any of them...

i knw,
1day,
when schl reopens especially,
i knw dat 1 by 1 they will disappear frm my view...
but,
i will try my best 2 remember n keep in touch wit them...

n but,
im afraid...

im afraid dat they will 4get me soon...
as they leave d work place....

wat i can do is...
oni pray 2 God...
hope dat God will made them remember me...
n treat me as hw i treat them...

haiz...
dats all i wanna said 4 dis chapter la..
wanna cry d..
T.T

thx 4 reading my 1st posting of blog...
hope u all enjoy readin it n will continue 2 read more of my posts...

~sAd EmO eLLe (o.O)~

Alkisah Ali dengan Baba

Pada suatu hari yang cerah dan begitu ceria,
Ali bertemu dengan Baba...
Lalu Ali berasa bosan lau bertanyakan satu teka-teki kepadanya..

Ali:Baba,nampaknya gitu bosan sekarang,biar i berikan usatu teka-teki...
Pada zaman kesultanan melayu melaka dahulu terdapat beberapa pahlawan agung yang di mana nama mereka diberi dengan permulaan "Hang"...
Jadi,Hang apakah yang paling bodoh di dunia ini???

Baba:Hahaha...tentu la Hang Jebat kerana ditewas Hang Tuah..

Ali:Hahahahahaha...memang pandai..tapi maaf la..jawapan u salah...

Baba: Salah ape benda nya???

Ali: salah la tu...haha..

Baba:Jadi,apakah jawapan yang sebenarnya???

Ali: u pasti ka u nak tau jawapan nya...u akan menyesal nanti...

Baba: Nyesal apa???jangan jangan jawapan tu tak logik???i bagi hang penampak baru tau...

Ali: hahaha...rilek la...baik la...u nak tau sangat jawapan nya,jadi,i pun bagi tau la...Jawapan yang sebenarnya ialah..............Hang Bodoh la...Bangang!!!! WAKAKAKAKAKAKAKA!!!!!

Baba:Memang nak kena ni.....ish..!!!!!!



Hahahahaha...gitu la cerita alkisah Ali dengan Baba...
Arap anda semue gembira membace nye...xP

q"n'n"p
((+++))")

Sabariah

1day,
ther r 2 guys playing near d river...they r Ali n Baba...
so,
Ali suddenly thought of a riddle for Baba...
so here their conversations go...


Ali:Baba,i had a riddle for u..

Baba:ok..bring it on Ali...i'd been known by dprofessional riddles breaker since i was in primary..

Ali:Ok..here it goes..
1day,ther is a vlillage which lives a pair of couples,
d husband named Sabarudin n his pregnant wife named Jubaidah..
later on,is d date for Jubaidah to give birth to her baby..
so,Sabarudin quickly rush his beloved wife to hospital..
soon,they'd reached d hospital...
n Jubaidah gave birth...
d baby was so stubborn n it doesn't want to come out..
so,d doctor ask her to push harder..
meanwhile,Sabarudin tells her,"sabar la sayang..sabar ya.."
shorten d story,
Jubaidah had gave birth her beloved baby..n they both husband n wife had decided to give their child a name...
the name is Sabariah...

Baba:Wait wait wait..Ali,i tot u r suppose to giv me a riddle..not telling me ur grandmother's stories..

Ali:Patient patien...here comes d riddles..
y both of them name their child as Sabariah???

Baba:haha...ur riddle r so interesting n challenging..but not for me babeh..
d answer is because of during Jubaidah gave birth,her husband kep telling her,"Sabar ya"
n then they both appear wit a name called "Sabariah"...
izit correct???
see how talented am i nw???hahaha...

Ali:haha...how creativ ur mind..but so sorry to tell u dat ur answer is wrong...

Baba:wat???how can it be???
then what is d correct anwer???better don;t giv me unlogic answer...

Ali:haha..u think i'm dat nonsense??
d correct answer is. . . . . . .
because their child is a female...wakakakakakaka!!!!!

Baba:(-_-lll)