How do I feel about her???

I feel that,
she is a very SELFISH girl!!!
The person that I hate the most is a SELFISH person...
I treat her so good just like my good friend...
but she does not...
Just treat me like a stranger that seldom talk...

For me,
I want to share what ever things with friends...
No matter its hard or sweet,
I'm ok with it...

BUT...
She does not like to share...
Sometime I saw her talking with my another friend,
then when I walked toward them,
they stopped d conversation...
When I asked what they are disccussing,
they insist to tell me...

Do they really treat me like friend???

Fine..
Other than this,
everytime when we went to have a meal,
she wouldn't follow..
If not,
she followed,but didn't eat...
Hence,
she walked away alone...
I mean,
HALOO...
if you don't really like to join with us,
then better DON'T!

I HATE PEOPLE LIKE THIS WHO ARE VERY VERY SELFISH!!!!
F*CK THEM OFF!!!!

PEOPLE LIKE THIS DO NOT DESERVE TO BE MY FRIEND!!!


~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

Stimbot nite...

2nite,
i n my classmates all celebrate a small party at KY's house...
jz 2 celebrate our schl holiday...
n oso d time wher v all 1 family get 2gether...
2nite can b said as a gud nite..
i really enjoyed having fun stimboating wit them...
although im tired of my work,
but i do enjoy myself wit all my classmates...
they really crazy n so m i...

but...

im having a tough day throughout 2day wholeday....
i drank half glass of beer...
i told myself not 2 drink beer..
but i couldn't control myself...
im 2 upset...
i wanna 4got those sad things in my mind...
im hoping dat my mind can b like computers wher they can delete wat eva things dat they dun wan.....

but...
2 bad i cant...
haiz...
i jz drank half glass of it...
not so effectiv 4 me 2 drunk...
i tot i wanna b drunk so dat wat eva stress dat in my mind will gone...
but i din drunk at all...
jz feelin sleepy....

my frenz r havin fun outside wit KY's Wii game...
sum of them were on9 web cam chattin wit YL...
YL couldn't make it here wit us coz her parents wun allow her 2 join...
so,
sum of my frens were chattin wit her happily...
im stayin inside KY's room coz i wan a moment of silent,
wher i can relax my mind...
n calm myself down....
if i keep on laughing wit them,
but feelin hard inside my heart,
i feel veli suffer...

i wanted 2 cry alone inside KY's room...
but im afraid dat they will saw it...
so,
i tried 2 tahan...

veli hard 4 me 2 pass my days evryday...
haiz...

who can help me??

i dun think any1 can....
haiz...


~sAd EmO eLLe~

im so disappointed on u...

2day is his 20th birthday...
at beginning,
I think I could give him a surprise...
I wished him last night few minutes after 12am....
I told him that I love him so much...
but...
He did not reply my message...
May be is because he is busy or his phone out of credit...
Fine...
Previously,
he said he wanted to come to my place...
He said he wanted to cut his hair and he asked me to bring him there...
so,
till today,
I waited his sms...
I rushed back home quickly after my class even I went to eat with my classmates...
I rushed myself very rush...
I thought that I would be late to meet him...
Im so tired during that time...
but,
i thhought that i will be happy when I see him...
but....


he did not turn up...
Not even a single notice or a sms...
I asked myself how silly am I...
Put so much hope,
end up with so much disappointment...

Just like what chinese people always say,
"希望越高，失望根加高"..

And now I understood this sentence...
I'm really stupid...
Really really stupid...
I think,
today shall be the last day I be with him...
I don't want to continue this anymore...
I'm really hurt...
I'm really suffer...

Everyday I could not have a nice rest...
Keep on thinking of him...
But...

I don't think he got think of me...
I'm really upset...

Really upset...
If I know this will happen earlier,
I wouldn't on with him already...

I think,
I'm not suitable for him...
I think is not the time yet for me to have a partner...
I think God does not want me to be on this route...
But why is GOD making me like this???
Why God creates me to have no feelings towards girls????!!!!
WHY??!!!!

I'm so confuse right now...
I think,
I'm gonna be single...
Till I'm 25...
or...
may be for the rest of my life....


Remember...
Today shall be the last day...
Tomorrow is a new day,
where he will go his way,
and I will go on my way...
Its up to him whether he wants to be a friend of mine,
or,
just be a stranger to me...

That's all...

Good bye 2(3)+3(7)+3(4)+3(2)...

The End...



~sAd EmO eLLe~

What the hell is happening to you all???!!!

I treat you all so good...
I tried to treat you all like my best friend...
but you all didn't notice it...
instead,
you all like do not bother about me...
I care for you all,
but you all seems ignoring my present..
I'd put my love in my friendship,
but you all seems do not like it...

For me,
love is not only for lovers..
For me,
love is for all the person that i loved..
besides my lover,
I also can love my friends and my god bros..
please be open minded..
don't be so sacarstic...

if you all hate me is because that I'm PLU,
then i suggest you all better F*CK OFF from my life!
although I'm PLU,
but I'm NOT an "Ah Kua"!!
PLU is just PLU..
its different from "Ah Kua"...
I am who I am...
if you all can't accept it,
then better don't be my friend...
I don't need a person who don't trust their friend!

THE END!



~MR. & MRS. eLLe~

i'd gone mad...

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after...




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~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

Cry on my Shoulder..T.T

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you"re feeling blue
If you"re away from love and you"re alone
If you call your friends and nobody"s home
You can run away but you can"t hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there"s a destiny
The best things in life
They"re free

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you"re feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There"s a place in heaven where we"ll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your sideI promise you
I"ll never hide

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you"re feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do..