Peanut Forgetting the Shells...

Friends, best friends, good friends and god brothers...
When they need us,
we are there for them...

When they are in sorrowness,
we are their listener...

When they are in pain,
we are they sand bag....

And when they need lust,
we are their HOOKER....



Every sentence every words,
which came out from their mouth,
are truth in our mind,
but AREN'T truth in their mind...

"I love you...",
"Sweetdreams my.....",
"Thanks o .....",
"I will never dump.....",


Those words from their mouth or their text always made my heart numb...
I'm very weak towards those so call "sweet" calls....

But now I ain't as weak as last time...
What ever I'd sacrificed for them,
they never appreciate it...
And hence they tend to forget about my presence when they got someone who are better than me or also known as their LOVER...

But I don't give a damn on those anymore...
Now I just trust myself only...
I will never over-trust on those who wanna be as mentioned above...
As people do no know how to apprecaite on others who helped them...

They are just like what traditional malays said..."Bagaikan kacang melupakan kulit"
Just like a peanut forgotten its shell...


~Ad + El = 4eVa~

Long-distance Relationship

Many people told me that long-distance relationship will neva last long...
But I wanted to prove to them that they are wrong...

Though I felt it hard because we couldn't meet an stay together,
but I still will not give up so fast...




I wanted my relationship to last long until the time reaches and I will try my very best to maintain and improve it...
I don't care what people see and what people say...
I just wanted a happy relation with him...
No one could break us apart...



I'm very ego with my principe...
Because in my heart now have only him and not others....
Full stop...

~Ad + El = 4eVa~

I need some time to cool myself down now..

I'm totally depressed now!!!!!
So many pressures inside my head..
Till like my head is going to explode...

Stress, Pressures, Headaches...

Already so much pressures received from college life..
Need to think of monthly fees, bills and daily expenses..
Not enough time to rest and do my assignments...

I couldn't concerntrate on my course and my assignments everyday just because of those....
Sometimes I thought too much untill I got a headache...
Then after few days I fell sick...


I'd already received so much pressures from college life,
now my workplace are giving me even more pressure!!!!

Everyday need to work until I don't have a space for my ownself...
Stupid concept of my work which is,"got work, got money..no work, no money,= makan pasir!!!"
Besides this,
the bloody BITCH in F***ing P*C*F*C K*M*T*R always wanted to cari pasai with me...
Just for simple problem also like to scold me...Even that problem is NOT my mistake!!!
She didn't check properly thus scold me directly for no reason and without proof!!!

She think who is she???
For me she is a MADAFAKING BITCH!!!
I DUN CARE WHAT BLOODY ASST. EXEC OR WHATSOEVER CRAPSHIT,
if she wanna mess with me,
I'LL MAKE SURE SHE LOSE HER JOB!!!!!

nlm NAH!!!!!! F*CK IT BITCH!!!!



F*CKING damn stressed....
What I want now is time to cool myself down...
And I need my 宝贝 now with me to comfort me...
Haizzzzzz.....