im so disappointed on u...

2day is his 20th birthday...
at beginning,
I think I could give him a surprise...
I wished him last night few minutes after 12am....
I told him that I love him so much...
but...
He did not reply my message...
May be is because he is busy or his phone out of credit...
Fine...
Previously,
he said he wanted to come to my place...
He said he wanted to cut his hair and he asked me to bring him there...
so,
till today,
I waited his sms...
I rushed back home quickly after my class even I went to eat with my classmates...
I rushed myself very rush...
I thought that I would be late to meet him...
Im so tired during that time...
but,
i thhought that i will be happy when I see him...
but....


he did not turn up...
Not even a single notice or a sms...
I asked myself how silly am I...
Put so much hope,
end up with so much disappointment...

Just like what chinese people always say,
"希望越高，失望根加高"..

And now I understood this sentence...
I'm really stupid...
Really really stupid...
I think,
today shall be the last day I be with him...
I don't want to continue this anymore...
I'm really hurt...
I'm really suffer...

Everyday I could not have a nice rest...
Keep on thinking of him...
But...

I don't think he got think of me...
I'm really upset...

Really upset...
If I know this will happen earlier,
I wouldn't on with him already...

I think,
I'm not suitable for him...
I think is not the time yet for me to have a partner...
I think God does not want me to be on this route...
But why is GOD making me like this???
Why God creates me to have no feelings towards girls????!!!!
WHY??!!!!

I'm so confuse right now...
I think,
I'm gonna be single...
Till I'm 25...
or...
may be for the rest of my life....


Remember...
Today shall be the last day...
Tomorrow is a new day,
where he will go his way,
and I will go on my way...
Its up to him whether he wants to be a friend of mine,
or,
just be a stranger to me...

That's all...

Good bye 2(3)+3(7)+3(4)+3(2)...

The End...



~sAd EmO eLLe~