Stimbot nite...

2nite,
i n my classmates all celebrate a small party at KY's house...
jz 2 celebrate our schl holiday...
n oso d time wher v all 1 family get 2gether...
2nite can b said as a gud nite..
i really enjoyed having fun stimboating wit them...
although im tired of my work,
but i do enjoy myself wit all my classmates...
they really crazy n so m i...

but...

im having a tough day throughout 2day wholeday....
i drank half glass of beer...
i told myself not 2 drink beer..
but i couldn't control myself...
im 2 upset...
i wanna 4got those sad things in my mind...
im hoping dat my mind can b like computers wher they can delete wat eva things dat they dun wan.....

but...
2 bad i cant...
haiz...
i jz drank half glass of it...
not so effectiv 4 me 2 drunk...
i tot i wanna b drunk so dat wat eva stress dat in my mind will gone...
but i din drunk at all...
jz feelin sleepy....

my frenz r havin fun outside wit KY's Wii game...
sum of them were on9 web cam chattin wit YL...
YL couldn't make it here wit us coz her parents wun allow her 2 join...
so,
sum of my frens were chattin wit her happily...
im stayin inside KY's room coz i wan a moment of silent,
wher i can relax my mind...
n calm myself down....
if i keep on laughing wit them,
but feelin hard inside my heart,
i feel veli suffer...

i wanted 2 cry alone inside KY's room...
but im afraid dat they will saw it...
so,
i tried 2 tahan...

veli hard 4 me 2 pass my days evryday...
haiz...

who can help me??

i dun think any1 can....
haiz...


~sAd EmO eLLe~