Wish before 25....

It had been so long...

since after the month of october...

i'd b single in my life till now...

sumtimes i felt sad,

but sumtimes i felt happy....

sad bcoz of no 1 wants me...

happy bcoz of i still hav my frenz n fellow classmates...

although they sumtimes dun bother me,

but most of d time v had fun...

i knw sumtimes they oso nid their privacy,

n dats y i'd learned not 2 b so selfish....

yes i do very selfish,

but i'm trying 2 change evrything...

i nid sum time 2 change,

so dat i could treat them better in future...

if i found a lover now,

i'll be appreciate 4 it..

i'm open minded 4 him,

as long as he has the trust on me...

dis is wat i request for my life,

b4 im 25 years old....

~没人爱的Elle仔~

The Power of Psychic..xP

hahaha...speechless...xP

Hoping to find someone who could care on me,love me, and stay with me untill I'm 25 years old.

I know this sounds stupid...
But this is what I am...

Now I'm really damn emo...
So long...I've been waited...
But no one wants me...
haiz...
Is it whether I look ugly or dull??
The longest relationship I'd ever had was just one month...
It couldn't be any longer...
I just want to find a true love, where I and him can stay togetther for a long term..
I don't request so much...just for 6 years will do...
Not forever....
But why i couldn't???
I'm very hurt when I see couples walking passed by me...

Many PLU's cannot be trusted...
This is what I'm afraid of too...
I wanna find someone who are matured enough,who had the same mind thinking as mine, and who can tolerate with me without any arguements to be my partner...

But,
I think it will be very hard for me to find one...
May be I'll never have a chance also...
haiz...

I don't wanna be single now...
At least give me a try....
haiz...



~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

My Sweetest Memory in year 2009...

My 1st n oso can said as sweetest memory dat i'd ever had was d day on 15th November till 18th November 2009..

It was d day i had my trip 2 ipoh n Genting..

On 15th,i met my beloved god bro,Aaron..

he brought me 2 shop around ipoh n met his frenz...dat nite v had our dinner of steamboat...

i was so shocked dat they all were small in their size but their food were big as mountain...xP

haha...

bt anyway,

i do enjoy dat nite dinner as v all had fun...

on d nex day,

v woke up at 4am in d morning n prepared ourself 2 d trip 2 genting...

v depart on 5am n reached at 10am...

so,

without wasting anymore time,
v went 2 had fun...

v played outdoor games...

ther was so cold especially after rain...

2 frens of Aaron had won a large teddy bear when they played d throwing rings...

they all were so happy n so do i...

nth much i could express it out but i think i was my best memory i had in 2009...

i love my god bro so much...

he had brought me so much fun during my trip..

although i scolded him not 2 spend so much money on me,

but he insist it coz he said im his bro n he want me 2 hav fun within these days..

so,

he had d responsibility 2 take care of me during dat time...
i felt so sorry 4 spending so much of his money,but,

i promise i would repay him bck whenever i hav a chance...

i love him so much...

n i couldn't affort 2 lose his as i had lose my beloved 1 b4...

i hope our relationship will laz long even im poor...

That's all i would like 2 post 4 d laz day of year 2009...

thank you 4 reading my post n hav a happy new year

take care n b happy always my frennz....

i love u all as well....^^,

How do I feel about her???

I feel that,
she is a very SELFISH girl!!!
The person that I hate the most is a SELFISH person...
I treat her so good just like my good friend...
but she does not...
Just treat me like a stranger that seldom talk...

For me,
I want to share what ever things with friends...
No matter its hard or sweet,
I'm ok with it...

BUT...
She does not like to share...
Sometime I saw her talking with my another friend,
then when I walked toward them,
they stopped d conversation...
When I asked what they are disccussing,
they insist to tell me...

Do they really treat me like friend???

Fine..
Other than this,
everytime when we went to have a meal,
she wouldn't follow..
If not,
she followed,but didn't eat...
Hence,
she walked away alone...
I mean,
HALOO...
if you don't really like to join with us,
then better DON'T!

I HATE PEOPLE LIKE THIS WHO ARE VERY VERY SELFISH!!!!
F*CK THEM OFF!!!!

PEOPLE LIKE THIS DO NOT DESERVE TO BE MY FRIEND!!!


~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

Stimbot nite...

2nite,
i n my classmates all celebrate a small party at KY's house...
jz 2 celebrate our schl holiday...
n oso d time wher v all 1 family get 2gether...
2nite can b said as a gud nite..
i really enjoyed having fun stimboating wit them...
although im tired of my work,
but i do enjoy myself wit all my classmates...
they really crazy n so m i...

but...

im having a tough day throughout 2day wholeday....
i drank half glass of beer...
i told myself not 2 drink beer..
but i couldn't control myself...
im 2 upset...
i wanna 4got those sad things in my mind...
im hoping dat my mind can b like computers wher they can delete wat eva things dat they dun wan.....

but...
2 bad i cant...
haiz...
i jz drank half glass of it...
not so effectiv 4 me 2 drunk...
i tot i wanna b drunk so dat wat eva stress dat in my mind will gone...
but i din drunk at all...
jz feelin sleepy....

my frenz r havin fun outside wit KY's Wii game...
sum of them were on9 web cam chattin wit YL...
YL couldn't make it here wit us coz her parents wun allow her 2 join...
so,
sum of my frens were chattin wit her happily...
im stayin inside KY's room coz i wan a moment of silent,
wher i can relax my mind...
n calm myself down....
if i keep on laughing wit them,
but feelin hard inside my heart,
i feel veli suffer...

i wanted 2 cry alone inside KY's room...
but im afraid dat they will saw it...
so,
i tried 2 tahan...

veli hard 4 me 2 pass my days evryday...
haiz...

who can help me??

i dun think any1 can....
haiz...


~sAd EmO eLLe~

im so disappointed on u...

2day is his 20th birthday...
at beginning,
I think I could give him a surprise...
I wished him last night few minutes after 12am....
I told him that I love him so much...
but...
He did not reply my message...
May be is because he is busy or his phone out of credit...
Fine...
Previously,
he said he wanted to come to my place...
He said he wanted to cut his hair and he asked me to bring him there...
so,
till today,
I waited his sms...
I rushed back home quickly after my class even I went to eat with my classmates...
I rushed myself very rush...
I thought that I would be late to meet him...
Im so tired during that time...
but,
i thhought that i will be happy when I see him...
but....


he did not turn up...
Not even a single notice or a sms...
I asked myself how silly am I...
Put so much hope,
end up with so much disappointment...

Just like what chinese people always say,
"希望越高，失望根加高"..

And now I understood this sentence...
I'm really stupid...
Really really stupid...
I think,
today shall be the last day I be with him...
I don't want to continue this anymore...
I'm really hurt...
I'm really suffer...

Everyday I could not have a nice rest...
Keep on thinking of him...
But...

I don't think he got think of me...
I'm really upset...

Really upset...
If I know this will happen earlier,
I wouldn't on with him already...

I think,
I'm not suitable for him...
I think is not the time yet for me to have a partner...
I think God does not want me to be on this route...
But why is GOD making me like this???
Why God creates me to have no feelings towards girls????!!!!
WHY??!!!!

I'm so confuse right now...
I think,
I'm gonna be single...
Till I'm 25...
or...
may be for the rest of my life....


Remember...
Today shall be the last day...
Tomorrow is a new day,
where he will go his way,
and I will go on my way...
Its up to him whether he wants to be a friend of mine,
or,
just be a stranger to me...

That's all...

Good bye 2(3)+3(7)+3(4)+3(2)...

The End...



~sAd EmO eLLe~