Why always the poor one have to suffer so much problems while the rich one don't???

I was wondering why always the poor one have to suffer so much problems in their fucking life while the rich one don't?

They are humans and so do we...But why is it unfair for us??

I am the one who are born without smart phones, without plenty of cashes, without great toys, without anything that I wanted to have...

I really envy on the others,

who don't need to work and yet they still can enjoy their fucking life everyday...

who gets anything that they wanted...

who gets on to the latest trend and fashion...

I always think for a long time whenever I wanted to buy something...

I don't have a chance to save money to buy what I wanted...

I don't want to ask money from my parents as I'd already burdened them for my studies...

But I still don't understand why whenever I wanted to save money to buy what I wanted, there will be a need to use the money for some other thing else...

I am envy that most of everyone are using smart phones now while I'm still using a "DUMB" fucking handphone which I'd already used for 5years...

I am envy that most of my classmates are using great cameras and variety of accessories while I don't even have a Lens that I want...

I am envy that people are start using Lomo cam and I still unable to own one even the price is much much cheaper than DSLR's accessories...

AND

I am envy that why I have to work in order to support my studies while the rest are sleeping at home and get their income expenses with just showing their hands to their parents...

Rich one will not understand how the poor's life...because they never suffer before what we suffering until now...

~sAd EmO eLLe~

时间过了真快。。

一眨眼，一年就过去了。。

甜蜜和痛苦也来跟去了。。

开心跟伤心，都一起经过了。。

为什么伤心时间会比开心时间长呢？

虽然只见过一次，

但是他还是永远在我身边。。。

宝贝，一周年快乐。。

永远爱你哦。。

Insurance Agency...

I wonder why there are people who don't know how to use their brain to think...

I met with an insurance agent and he asked me to signed up a new promotion from their insurance company..And I told him that I'm not interested in those insurance things and yet he kept telling me all his nonsense...

Next, I told him that, " you are not the first one who ask me to join.."

"There were a few more others who had asked me before also...Most of my customers from insurance agency had asked me before, my workmate's friend also asked before, my best friend asked me before as well, and even my AUNT who are the MANAGER of her insurance agency asked me before...If I really wanted to buy, why I still need you to explain all those things to me?"

And yet he kept on telling me again...bla bla bla...A normal person who knows how to manage his business, he must not only pursue their customer but must make their customer to feel confident towards them...And he is not only making me losing my temper,yet he is making me felt disappointed towards him and worst is making disappointed towards ALL the insurance agencies...

..Elle..

KL vs Penang

People in KL will never know and understand the living of people in Penang..

As KL they live in cities and towns...

Most of them are successful businessmen and bosses...

They are rich...

They had what they want..

They will never know how is the life of the poor people...

How can you compare people from KL and Penang??

Yes I admit we were educated in the same way..

BUT that were just education...

They do not know what is the meaning of MANNERISM...

Too bad...

Penang people live in hard way...

We had a boring lifestyle everyday..

class, work, assignment, sleep...

That's our life...

How bout you all???

Rich family's kids won't know how is the hardness and suffocation of earning money...

They have their parents to pampered them...

They don't have working experience..

And they never feel how is working and college life...

I'd learned my lesson now...

And I will continue my life...

I will concentrate more in my work and studies now...

Don't want to think others already...

No point thinking so much as you don't know what really is happening in our life...

~sAd EmO eLLe~

Kite

Loving sum1 is jz like playing a kite..

We nid to control it well so dat it will fly up high towards d sky...

If v pull it to hard, it wun fly up properly..

If v let go it to much, it will blown away by d wind...

As v r hepi when v c d kite flies up high dancing with da wind...

After long term playing like dat, v will start 2 b bored...

But the kite is still dancing happily wit da wind...

Soon,

v will slowly lose our grip,

and d kite will fly away wit d wind 2getha...

~SaD eMo eLLe~

SUPERLOVER

Early in the morning I put breakfast on your table,

and make sure that your coffee has it sugar and cream..

Your eggs are over easy, your toast are lightly..

All that missing is your morning kiss that used to greet me..

And now you said the juice is sour, it used to be so sweet..

And I cant help but to wonder if you're talking about me...

We don't talk the way we used to talk, its hurting so deep..

I have my pride, I will not cry, but its making me weak..

I'm not your SUPERLOVER!!!

I'm not the kind of guy that you could let down and think that everything's OK!

Boy I am only HUMAN!!!

This guy needs more than occasional hugs as a token of love from you to me...

I fought the way through the rush hour trying to make it home just for you,

I want to make sure that your dinner will be waiting for you,

but when you get there, you just tell me you're not hungry at all..

You said you rather read the paper and you don't want to talk..

You might to think that I am crazy when I said that you've changed..

I'm convinced I know the problem that you don't love me the same..

You're just going through the motions and you're not being FAIR!!

I've got my pride, I will not cry, still I can't help but care..

Oh babe...

Look into your corner of your mind..

I'll always be there for you in good and bad times,

but I can't be the SUPERLOVER that you want me to be!!!

I'll give my everlasting love if you'll return to love me!!!!!

~sAd eMo eLLe~

Overmissed...

I dreamt of him twice already...
Every night I slept, I hugged tight my pillows and bolster...
Imagining as if I am hugging him while I sleep...
I can't stop thinking of him...

Whenever I see my phone,
when ther is no message,
I started to miss him...
My heart started to cry...

Everytime I received his message,
I always hope he feels my comfort...
Though I don't know how to comfort him,
but I'll try my very best for him...

Its been 4 months we'd been together...
But we never meet each other...
He always told me that he is afraid,
afraid that I'll be dissapointed after we meet..
I told him that I will not...
My love toward him is long lasting...

I will not give up until he give up on me...
And I will be waiting,
till the day we could meet and stay together...


Dear..
I love you so much...
I want to be with you forever no matter what and how people say...
I just want you to be with me....





~Elle~

Heaven Knows...

He's always on my mind,
From the time I wake up till I close my eyes..
He's everywhere I go,
He's all I know..

And though he's so far away,
It just keep getting stronger everyday..
And even now he's gone,
I'm still holding on..

So tell me where do I start,
Coz its breaking my heart..
I don't wanna let him go....

May be my heart will come back someday,
Only Heaven knows...
And may be our hearts will find a way,
but only Heaven knows...

And all I can do is hope and pray,
Coz Heaven knows...

My friends keep telling me,
that if you really love him,
you've gotta set him free...
And if he returns in time,
I know he is mine....

So tell me where do I start,
Coz its breaking my heart...
I don't wanna let her go...

May be my love will come back someday,
Only Heaven knows..
And may be our hearts will find a way,
but only Heaven knows...

And all I can do is hope and pray..
Coz Heaven knows..

Why I live in despair?
Coz while awake and dreaming I know he's never there...
And all the time I act so brave but I'm shaking inside,
Why does this hurts me so???????

May be my love will come back someday,
Only Heaven knows..
And may be our hearts will find a way,
but only Heaven knows...

And all I can do is hope and pray..
Coz Heaven knows..

Heaven knows.....T.T

ICH HASSE DICH!!!!!

当你还没有爱人时，

我当你是我的亲身弟弟。。。

我那么疼你，
不想你伤心。。。


每天都信息你，
不想你寂寞。。





我用我很真心地去爱你，
现在你有了爱人，
根本都不理我了。。。



又说我不再信息你。。。
不是我不信息你，
每次我信息你时，你都说没空！
那么没空，为什么还要我联络你？？？


你是当我是什么？？
是一个玩具吗？？？





我真的很不服气！！！
为什么你要这么对我？？？？！！！！T.T







ICH HASSE SIE SOVIEL!!!! T.T wuwuwuwuwuwu~~~~

Peanut Forgetting the Shells...

Friends, best friends, good friends and god brothers...
When they need us,
we are there for them...

When they are in sorrowness,
we are their listener...

When they are in pain,
we are they sand bag....

And when they need lust,
we are their HOOKER....



Every sentence every words,
which came out from their mouth,
are truth in our mind,
but AREN'T truth in their mind...

"I love you...",
"Sweetdreams my.....",
"Thanks o .....",
"I will never dump.....",


Those words from their mouth or their text always made my heart numb...
I'm very weak towards those so call "sweet" calls....

But now I ain't as weak as last time...
What ever I'd sacrificed for them,
they never appreciate it...
And hence they tend to forget about my presence when they got someone who are better than me or also known as their LOVER...

But I don't give a damn on those anymore...
Now I just trust myself only...
I will never over-trust on those who wanna be as mentioned above...
As people do no know how to apprecaite on others who helped them...

They are just like what traditional malays said..."Bagaikan kacang melupakan kulit"
Just like a peanut forgotten its shell...


~Ad + El = 4eVa~

Long-distance Relationship

Many people told me that long-distance relationship will neva last long...
But I wanted to prove to them that they are wrong...

Though I felt it hard because we couldn't meet an stay together,
but I still will not give up so fast...




I wanted my relationship to last long until the time reaches and I will try my very best to maintain and improve it...
I don't care what people see and what people say...
I just wanted a happy relation with him...
No one could break us apart...



I'm very ego with my principe...
Because in my heart now have only him and not others....
Full stop...

~Ad + El = 4eVa~

I need some time to cool myself down now..

I'm totally depressed now!!!!!
So many pressures inside my head..
Till like my head is going to explode...

Stress, Pressures, Headaches...

Already so much pressures received from college life..
Need to think of monthly fees, bills and daily expenses..
Not enough time to rest and do my assignments...

I couldn't concerntrate on my course and my assignments everyday just because of those....
Sometimes I thought too much untill I got a headache...
Then after few days I fell sick...


I'd already received so much pressures from college life,
now my workplace are giving me even more pressure!!!!

Everyday need to work until I don't have a space for my ownself...
Stupid concept of my work which is,"got work, got money..no work, no money,= makan pasir!!!"
Besides this,
the bloody BITCH in F***ing P*C*F*C K*M*T*R always wanted to cari pasai with me...
Just for simple problem also like to scold me...Even that problem is NOT my mistake!!!
She didn't check properly thus scold me directly for no reason and without proof!!!

She think who is she???
For me she is a MADAFAKING BITCH!!!
I DUN CARE WHAT BLOODY ASST. EXEC OR WHATSOEVER CRAPSHIT,
if she wanna mess with me,
I'LL MAKE SURE SHE LOSE HER JOB!!!!!

nlm NAH!!!!!! F*CK IT BITCH!!!!



F*CKING damn stressed....
What I want now is time to cool myself down...
And I need my 宝贝 now with me to comfort me...
Haizzzzzz.....

18 May 2010

Yesterday was our 1 Month Anniversary...

Im so upset that I couldn't celebrate with my sweetheart..

And worst I got a fever and headache till I couldn't be so sweet with him...

I really felt so hard...

I hope he will never mind about this...

But what I always hope is that he could be happy being together with me...

I wanted him to be comfort by me...

I wanted him to stay forever with me...

This time is my real heart towards my lover...

My EX durations was about 1month relationship...

But this time,

I want it to be forever...

I don't want him to feel upset because of me...

I don't want him to blame himself again because of me...

What I want is to take care of him...

Ensure that he is always happy with me..

As long as he is happy,

I'm happy as well together with him...

Dear,

I wanna tel you that I love you and I wanna hold you tight,

so that I won't lose you...

I promise...

Always loving you~~Elle...

^^v

hehe..

my live nw adays getting much much happier than laz time...

its all bcoz of him..

itz bcoz of him i culd b hapy for...

i love him so much...

i promis to him dat i will not leave him until he leaves me...

i so miss him...

evryday i missed him...

i'll miss him whenever i din receive his reply...

i'll miss him when i din c his pic...

i'll miss him when i culdn't hear his voice...

i miss him evryday...

he is part of my life...

without him,

i culdn't b so happy till 2day...

without him,
im still living in d darkness..

without him,

im still lonely...

i cant afford 2 lose him...

i wan him so much 2 b 2getha wit me...

i wan to tie him tight 2getha wit me...

i dun mind if culd tie a dead knot...

i love so much dear...

miss u....

muax~~~

~Elle + Adlie = 4eVa~

Fnally~~~

I'm finnaly in relationship nw!!!!
wooohooooo!!!!
haha...

How sweet for dat...
really thank God so much...
now im so happy wit him...
Though c live so far apart,
but my heart is always be with him..

Now i even much more happier than laz time...
after he stepped into my life,
I have no more worries...
my sadness r gone...
my hardness r gone as well....

Wat makes even happier is dat he has so many similarities wit me...
he loves music n so do i...
he loves purple n so do i...
he loves emo n so do i...
he loves me...n so do i love him!!!!
and v hav d favourite song as well too...
haha...

i love u so much dear!!!



~Elle+A=43Va~~~

The Loving Memories of Grandma~

Tomorrow tomorrow and tomorrow...

Seconds by seconds, a minute passed...
Minutes by minutes, an hour passed....
Hours by hours, a day passed...
Days by days, a week passed...
Weeks by weeks, a month passed...
Months by months, a year passed...




and finally...





Years by years,
human lives gone...



From now on,
our family will gonna missing something...
Something that could light up the darkness in our heart....
And that thing is a voice...
The most cheerful voice...


The voice of my beloved grandma...





She likes scolding people since I was very young...
She likes to pluck off teeth for her granchildren...
She likes to talk bad about her grandchildren infront of every relatives...





Last time I used to hate her...
But now,
I regret....



Because..



All the words that comes out from her mouth,
its all for our own good...



She talks bad about her grandchildren infront of relatives,
because she wants us to feel the shame and not to repeat the same mistakes again!!!



She likes to pluck off the teeth of her grandchildren,
because she don't want us to waste money to see a dentist!!!!






My grandma is a very brave woman...
She has no fear in her life...
I saw her arguing with a guy at a road side when i was about in primary school...(i cant remember arguing for what)


She dares to fight for her disease eventhough it is very risky for her...
She dares to face the fate that comes to her...






Many people in our family members don't really like her I think...
Due to her attitude,
the way she talked,
they way she act,
the way she treat us...





But...





They don't know what is the BIGGEST sacrifice that she had done for her children n grandchildren....
Until yesterday morning during the funeral ceremony time only everyone starts to regret...
Everyone starts to cry..Including me...



But...
Its too late already...
Time had passed....
Life has gone...



Now what we had to do is to be strong...
No matter what also,
we still had to grant her last will...



Which is...
The most important is to take care of our grandpa...


and...



The whole family had to be united...
"A swollen bannana can cause that whole bannana unedible"....
This is what she always hope..


Although her body is no longer here,
but her soul are always in our heart,
and our memories....





Thank you God for bringing my grandma Home..
May God bless grandma Rest in Peace....





~EmO eLLe~

This 3months are the most suffering months for me..

This 3months are the most suffering months for me..
Haiz...

I'll be so lonely in this coming 3months starting from today onwards..
This is not so improtant...
I just worry about my beloved k didi....
He just went to the bloody NS this morning...
I missed him so much...

I'm afraid he is lonely there...
I'm sure he needs some one to accompany...
He has no friends there yet...
He was forced to cut his beautiful hair...

Really such a SUCKERS for those m*l*y*s people...
Forcing people to join this nonsense activity and yet still wanted to force people to cut their hair to botak...
FUCK those kind of people who are BRAINLESS!!!!!

I'm so heart-pain to see my k didi....
I really wanted to cry out...
Yet I can't do anything for him...Haiz.....

I'll always pray for his safety and I'll try to contact him as much as possible...
I love him so much as he love me as well...
I wanted to comfort him when he needs some one to talk...
I don't mind also if he find his lover to talk to...
As long as he is accompanied by some one I know,
then I'll be chilled already...

I promise to find him once he comes back home...
I'll do what I'd promised...
I love u didi...T.T

~sAd EmO eLLe~

Wanna look for a partner...haiz...

So many people who are close to me now already have their own relationships...

My friend, my workmates, my classmates, my bro, my k bros...
Only me that are still alone...


I'm really lonely...
Sometimes I saw their relationship are so sweet,
I'll thought back about the time I had...



I feel so jelous about them...
Sometimes I do think not to disturb their sweet time...
Sometimes I'm moody...



I'm really sad...
I'd been single for almost 5months...
The previous relationship I had was just a month...
I'm not satisfied with it...


How come people want to dump me...
I just don't understand in this way...

Why????


Is not that I want to break with them...
But is THEY who want to break....
I really want a relationship now...
A long term relationship until i reach the age of 25...


I might be selfish in this way...
But at least I wish to try,


Before it is too late....

~sAd EmO eLLe~

hw cum all those "kind" of ppl r so damn selfish????!!!!

hw cum all those "kind" of ppl r so damn selfish????!!!!
he is totally such a madafaking bitch n d worst ppl on earth!!!

usually when he wanna do his thing time he will delay d time...
while when v wanna do our things time,
he kept on resisting us frm staying....

den when v wanna do sumting,
he dun wanna tell properly 1st wan...
evrytime oso like dat...
dis is not the 1st time of all...
moz of evry1 has knwn his "pattern"...
smile infront of you,
pierce u frm the bck..

owits insult ppl wit his knwoledge that he is better than us..
think dat he very great...
MY ARSE la!!!!

i bet d whole world oso dun like dis kinda ppl...
thats y i said that "kind" of ppl r very selfish...
dis had been proven not oni him,
but ther is another guy r oso d same....

~Emo eLLe~

I am totallu disappointed on u!!! =1(2)+1(2)+3(7)+3(6)+2(6)x3(2)+2(4)+3(4)+2(6)

I loved him so much with full of my heart...
I always do the best for him...
Keep on thinking where I'm weak for him....
so that i could make him happy....

I'm always thinking,
I'm still missing out of what...
To make him feel comfort with me...

I put myself into his heart,
supporting him day by day....
Preparing myself,
when he needs comfort from me...

I'd even prayed for him,
days before his exam,
days before the results come out,
and days when I want him to be safe....

I even planned to skip my work just to find and meet him..

but...

End up with a disappointment....
I'd rather sacrifice for him,
but nw I think that I'm really stupid....

He'd made me felt so disappointed...
Alot of disappointment....
I tried to forgive and forget....

but now...

I'd reached out the limit....
I need a rest now....
I don't want anymore nonsense from him....

but I'm still not SATISFIED with that!!!!!
I don't SATISFIED is why he rather to dump me aside just for a BLOODY GUY that he LOVE???!!!!!!

WHY???!!!!!!!!

I'm very NOT SATISFIED!!!!!!!

I HATE YOU SO MUCH!!!=1(2)+1(2)+3(7)+3(6)+2(6) x 3(2)+2(4)+3(4)+2(6)

sAd EmO eLLe