Girlish

sumtimes when v talk bout sum1 elz,
v felt happy...
but do u knw dat,dat person is feeling d pain in their heart...
so,
i wanna tell u all dat,
sum ppl keep saying me girlish....
but i dun mind bout dat...
sum call me "pretty",
sum call me "handsum"...
sum even call me as "jie jie"(sister)...
but i dun mind at all...
wat i really hate is dat ppl callin me "ah pon","ah kua",sissy n wat eva shit isit la...
pls ask them fuck their own mother's pussy if they wanna call me dis..
they dun really knw bout me n they wanna simply call me like dat 4 d sake of their fun...
ask them go fuck their mother la!!!
dat wan even more fun..

~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

2day hav nth 2 post...
coz nth happened 2day...
jz dat veli boring evryday oso doin same stuffs...
anyway,
thx 4 reading my blog o~

~EmO eLLe (o.O)~

I thought...

I thought he is...
but he is not...

I thought he likes...

but he does not...

I thought he can be...

but he cannot...

I thought he will...

but he will not...

I thought i can be happy,

but I cannot...

why am I so stupid?

I am I thinking about that?

Why?

Because...

I thought I like...

~The End~

I was wrong...

2day,
im not dat happy...
woke up in d morning,
went to work..

not enough slept laz nite,
so working blur blur...
went 2 kolej late,
but teacher din scold..
she asked us 2 bring laptop,
but neva ask us 2 preapare d things she nid b4 dat...

so,
i done nth during d class...
such a waste of time...
worst,
wasted my effort bringing my laptop here and ther...

schl ends,
went eat..
appointed wit frens,
end up din met...

so dissapointed...

so depress....

and. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .




so sad.....


~The End~

The most suffer things i'd ever faced...

since d 1st day i entered my institution,
i saw d eyes of a person......
looking deep into my eyes...
my nerves goes crazy,
my heart goes fast,
my mind gone mad....
i dunno y it suddenly hapens on me.....


few weeks later,
v started 2 talk and v became frenz...
dis happened during d 1st outing dat been organised in my institution...
v startded 2 talk,
v started 2 make jokes..
i started 2 make fun of my self,
dat person started 2 laugh...

d laughter,
makes me feel so comfortable....
as if dat i was d 1 who r laughing...
i dunno y,
but its fun...

few months had passed in a blink of eyes..
as v get closer wit each other,
i got a comfort frm dat person,
i felt d warmness throughout myself...

i hav a strong feelin upon dat person,
but i can barely felt dat i m not in d heart,
of dat person instead,
ther is sumting,
had blocked d entrance of me towards d space of d heart...

evryday,evry nite,
i m sad....
staying alone ther,
in the darkness,
at d corner,
wher ther is no single light,
shall shine n set me free...

now,
day by day,
my heart getting harder...
like a venom,
rushing in,
bringing d pain and d sorefulness,
killing my mind,
my soul...
but,
ther is no 1 knws bout it...

yet,
i can do nth,
but,
only wait 4 d light,
2 set me free frm d darkness,
n shall allow me,
to enter,
the place wher my joys n happiness were stored...
as im still waiting,
4 d chance even i'd broke d law,
of d almighty.....


~The End~

My Brother's b'day

2day,30th of june,is d day of my bro's bday...
i felt so bad coz i cant manage 2 giv him a present...
laz nite when d clock reached 12am,i'd 4gotten 2 wish him coz i was watching d America Next Top Model..
haiz...
but i had made him a bday wish card by myself..
i hope he will like it la...
coz i cant do any other things 4 him d coz i cant affort 2 buy him anything as i had 2 save my expenses 4 my study fees...
but i really wanna giv him sumthing..
so,
i made him dis card...i done dis card wit my full feelings n efforts...
nth much jz hope he will like dis card...




~The End~

D laz day of my "Journey"...

so sorry 4 not posting my blog 4 so long...
2day's blog is about past few days ago which was on d 19 of june...
duringdat day was my schl band concert day...
ther,
i hav been happy n sad 2gether...
d happy is dat,
1 of my fren frm taiping is cuming 2 watch my concert performance...
im very happy wit him bcuz he willing 2 cum all d way frm his hometown 2 here jz 2 watch my schl band performance...
so,
i bought a rm20 tiket reserved 4 him...
durin dat time,i planned 2 pass 2 him by myself..
but due 2 d shortage of time..
so,
i pass d tiket 2 1 of my teacher incharge at d tiket counter ther..
i wrote my fren's name n my name behind d tiket...
but 1 thing i dun understand is dat hw can d teacher incharge ther mistaken given d tiket 2 other person????
its written ther so big my name n my fren's...
den my fren told me dat d teacher sold him a rm10 tiket...
WAT DA FUCK MAN???!!!
hw culd dis happen???
dats means,
they untung my rm20 buta buta n i jz rugi like dat...
i told d incharge few days after d concert..
but ther is no respond...
not even a single respond...
i really disappointed of their work...
fine..dat wan i tried 2 ignore...

on d nex day,
was d day wher d schl principal retirement day...
during dat nite i helped them 2 perform...
during d rehearsal time,
i asked d 1 incharge whether wat songs will b played..
he said jz d soft songs n jz a few of short songs frm d concert list...
den i planned jz 2 bring my soprano sax instead of bass cl,coz its not convinient 4 me 2 change d instrument during dat time...
but,
when v reached d hotel,
my instructor scolded me 4 not bringing bass cl...
i kena marah buta buta again...
so nvm,
i tried 2 ignore again...
i played d trumpet part during dat nite...
after a while,
1 of d trumpetter went bck early..n dat guy was 1 of a gud trumpet player...after he went bck,
d instructor suddenly bcum so polite 2 me asking me 2 help d trumpetters 2 play their solo parts...
wat da heck??
at 1st scold,den suddenly b so polite...
in other word dat can b said is dat im being used...

after dat nite,
i promise i will neva serve 4 them ANYMORE!!!!!

THE END!

~sAd EmO eLLe (o.O)~