SUPERLOVER

Early in the morning I put breakfast on your table,

and make sure that your coffee has it sugar and cream..

Your eggs are over easy, your toast are lightly..

All that missing is your morning kiss that used to greet me..

And now you said the juice is sour, it used to be so sweet..

And I cant help but to wonder if you're talking about me...

We don't talk the way we used to talk, its hurting so deep..

I have my pride, I will not cry, but its making me weak..

I'm not your SUPERLOVER!!!

I'm not the kind of guy that you could let down and think that everything's OK!

Boy I am only HUMAN!!!

This guy needs more than occasional hugs as a token of love from you to me...

I fought the way through the rush hour trying to make it home just for you,

I want to make sure that your dinner will be waiting for you,

but when you get there, you just tell me you're not hungry at all..

You said you rather read the paper and you don't want to talk..

You might to think that I am crazy when I said that you've changed..

I'm convinced I know the problem that you don't love me the same..

You're just going through the motions and you're not being FAIR!!

I've got my pride, I will not cry, still I can't help but care..

Oh babe...

Look into your corner of your mind..

I'll always be there for you in good and bad times,

but I can't be the SUPERLOVER that you want me to be!!!

I'll give my everlasting love if you'll return to love me!!!!!

~sAd eMo eLLe~

Overmissed...

I dreamt of him twice already...
Every night I slept, I hugged tight my pillows and bolster...
Imagining as if I am hugging him while I sleep...
I can't stop thinking of him...

Whenever I see my phone,
when ther is no message,
I started to miss him...
My heart started to cry...

Everytime I received his message,
I always hope he feels my comfort...
Though I don't know how to comfort him,
but I'll try my very best for him...

Its been 4 months we'd been together...
But we never meet each other...
He always told me that he is afraid,
afraid that I'll be dissapointed after we meet..
I told him that I will not...
My love toward him is long lasting...

I will not give up until he give up on me...
And I will be waiting,
till the day we could meet and stay together...


Dear..
I love you so much...
I want to be with you forever no matter what and how people say...
I just want you to be with me....





~Elle~

Heaven Knows...

He's always on my mind,
From the time I wake up till I close my eyes..
He's everywhere I go,
He's all I know..

And though he's so far away,
It just keep getting stronger everyday..
And even now he's gone,
I'm still holding on..

So tell me where do I start,
Coz its breaking my heart..
I don't wanna let him go....

May be my heart will come back someday,
Only Heaven knows...
And may be our hearts will find a way,
but only Heaven knows...

And all I can do is hope and pray,
Coz Heaven knows...

My friends keep telling me,
that if you really love him,
you've gotta set him free...
And if he returns in time,
I know he is mine....

So tell me where do I start,
Coz its breaking my heart...
I don't wanna let her go...

May be my love will come back someday,
Only Heaven knows..
And may be our hearts will find a way,
but only Heaven knows...

And all I can do is hope and pray..
Coz Heaven knows..

Why I live in despair?
Coz while awake and dreaming I know he's never there...
And all the time I act so brave but I'm shaking inside,
Why does this hurts me so???????

May be my love will come back someday,
Only Heaven knows..
And may be our hearts will find a way,
but only Heaven knows...

And all I can do is hope and pray..
Coz Heaven knows..

Heaven knows.....T.T

ICH HASSE DICH!!!!!

当你还没有爱人时，

我当你是我的亲身弟弟。。。

我那么疼你，
不想你伤心。。。


每天都信息你，
不想你寂寞。。





我用我很真心地去爱你，
现在你有了爱人，
根本都不理我了。。。



又说我不再信息你。。。
不是我不信息你，
每次我信息你时，你都说没空！
那么没空，为什么还要我联络你？？？


你是当我是什么？？
是一个玩具吗？？？





我真的很不服气！！！
为什么你要这么对我？？？？！！！！T.T







ICH HASSE SIE SOVIEL!!!! T.T wuwuwuwuwuwu~~~~

Peanut Forgetting the Shells...

Friends, best friends, good friends and god brothers...
When they need us,
we are there for them...

When they are in sorrowness,
we are their listener...

When they are in pain,
we are they sand bag....

And when they need lust,
we are their HOOKER....



Every sentence every words,
which came out from their mouth,
are truth in our mind,
but AREN'T truth in their mind...

"I love you...",
"Sweetdreams my.....",
"Thanks o .....",
"I will never dump.....",


Those words from their mouth or their text always made my heart numb...
I'm very weak towards those so call "sweet" calls....

But now I ain't as weak as last time...
What ever I'd sacrificed for them,
they never appreciate it...
And hence they tend to forget about my presence when they got someone who are better than me or also known as their LOVER...

But I don't give a damn on those anymore...
Now I just trust myself only...
I will never over-trust on those who wanna be as mentioned above...
As people do no know how to apprecaite on others who helped them...

They are just like what traditional malays said..."Bagaikan kacang melupakan kulit"
Just like a peanut forgotten its shell...


~Ad + El = 4eVa~

Long-distance Relationship

Many people told me that long-distance relationship will neva last long...
But I wanted to prove to them that they are wrong...

Though I felt it hard because we couldn't meet an stay together,
but I still will not give up so fast...




I wanted my relationship to last long until the time reaches and I will try my very best to maintain and improve it...
I don't care what people see and what people say...
I just wanted a happy relation with him...
No one could break us apart...



I'm very ego with my principe...
Because in my heart now have only him and not others....
Full stop...

~Ad + El = 4eVa~

I need some time to cool myself down now..

I'm totally depressed now!!!!!
So many pressures inside my head..
Till like my head is going to explode...

Stress, Pressures, Headaches...

Already so much pressures received from college life..
Need to think of monthly fees, bills and daily expenses..
Not enough time to rest and do my assignments...

I couldn't concerntrate on my course and my assignments everyday just because of those....
Sometimes I thought too much untill I got a headache...
Then after few days I fell sick...


I'd already received so much pressures from college life,
now my workplace are giving me even more pressure!!!!

Everyday need to work until I don't have a space for my ownself...
Stupid concept of my work which is,"got work, got money..no work, no money,= makan pasir!!!"
Besides this,
the bloody BITCH in F***ing P*C*F*C K*M*T*R always wanted to cari pasai with me...
Just for simple problem also like to scold me...Even that problem is NOT my mistake!!!
She didn't check properly thus scold me directly for no reason and without proof!!!

She think who is she???
For me she is a MADAFAKING BITCH!!!
I DUN CARE WHAT BLOODY ASST. EXEC OR WHATSOEVER CRAPSHIT,
if she wanna mess with me,
I'LL MAKE SURE SHE LOSE HER JOB!!!!!

nlm NAH!!!!!! F*CK IT BITCH!!!!



F*CKING damn stressed....
What I want now is time to cool myself down...
And I need my 宝贝 now with me to comfort me...
Haizzzzzz.....