Peanut Forgetting the Shells...

Friends, best friends, good friends and god brothers...
When they need us,
we are there for them...

When they are in sorrowness,
we are their listener...

When they are in pain,
we are they sand bag....

And when they need lust,
we are their HOOKER....



Every sentence every words,
which came out from their mouth,
are truth in our mind,
but AREN'T truth in their mind...

"I love you...",
"Sweetdreams my.....",
"Thanks o .....",
"I will never dump.....",


Those words from their mouth or their text always made my heart numb...
I'm very weak towards those so call "sweet" calls....

But now I ain't as weak as last time...
What ever I'd sacrificed for them,
they never appreciate it...
And hence they tend to forget about my presence when they got someone who are better than me or also known as their LOVER...

But I don't give a damn on those anymore...
Now I just trust myself only...
I will never over-trust on those who wanna be as mentioned above...
As people do no know how to apprecaite on others who helped them...

They are just like what traditional malays said..."Bagaikan kacang melupakan kulit"
Just like a peanut forgotten its shell...


~Ad + El = 4eVa~

Long-distance Relationship

Many people told me that long-distance relationship will neva last long...
But I wanted to prove to them that they are wrong...

Though I felt it hard because we couldn't meet an stay together,
but I still will not give up so fast...




I wanted my relationship to last long until the time reaches and I will try my very best to maintain and improve it...
I don't care what people see and what people say...
I just wanted a happy relation with him...
No one could break us apart...



I'm very ego with my principe...
Because in my heart now have only him and not others....
Full stop...

~Ad + El = 4eVa~

I need some time to cool myself down now..

I'm totally depressed now!!!!!
So many pressures inside my head..
Till like my head is going to explode...

Stress, Pressures, Headaches...

Already so much pressures received from college life..
Need to think of monthly fees, bills and daily expenses..
Not enough time to rest and do my assignments...

I couldn't concerntrate on my course and my assignments everyday just because of those....
Sometimes I thought too much untill I got a headache...
Then after few days I fell sick...


I'd already received so much pressures from college life,
now my workplace are giving me even more pressure!!!!

Everyday need to work until I don't have a space for my ownself...
Stupid concept of my work which is,"got work, got money..no work, no money,= makan pasir!!!"
Besides this,
the bloody BITCH in F***ing P*C*F*C K*M*T*R always wanted to cari pasai with me...
Just for simple problem also like to scold me...Even that problem is NOT my mistake!!!
She didn't check properly thus scold me directly for no reason and without proof!!!

She think who is she???
For me she is a MADAFAKING BITCH!!!
I DUN CARE WHAT BLOODY ASST. EXEC OR WHATSOEVER CRAPSHIT,
if she wanna mess with me,
I'LL MAKE SURE SHE LOSE HER JOB!!!!!

nlm NAH!!!!!! F*CK IT BITCH!!!!



F*CKING damn stressed....
What I want now is time to cool myself down...
And I need my 宝贝 now with me to comfort me...
Haizzzzzz.....

18 May 2010

Yesterday was our 1 Month Anniversary...

Im so upset that I couldn't celebrate with my sweetheart..

And worst I got a fever and headache till I couldn't be so sweet with him...

I really felt so hard...

I hope he will never mind about this...

But what I always hope is that he could be happy being together with me...

I wanted him to be comfort by me...

I wanted him to stay forever with me...

This time is my real heart towards my lover...

My EX durations was about 1month relationship...

But this time,

I want it to be forever...

I don't want him to feel upset because of me...

I don't want him to blame himself again because of me...

What I want is to take care of him...

Ensure that he is always happy with me..

As long as he is happy,

I'm happy as well together with him...

Dear,

I wanna tel you that I love you and I wanna hold you tight,

so that I won't lose you...

I promise...

Always loving you~~Elle...

^^v

hehe..

my live nw adays getting much much happier than laz time...

its all bcoz of him..

itz bcoz of him i culd b hapy for...

i love him so much...

i promis to him dat i will not leave him until he leaves me...

i so miss him...

evryday i missed him...

i'll miss him whenever i din receive his reply...

i'll miss him when i din c his pic...

i'll miss him when i culdn't hear his voice...

i miss him evryday...

he is part of my life...

without him,

i culdn't b so happy till 2day...

without him,
im still living in d darkness..

without him,

im still lonely...

i cant afford 2 lose him...

i wan him so much 2 b 2getha wit me...

i wan to tie him tight 2getha wit me...

i dun mind if culd tie a dead knot...

i love so much dear...

miss u....

muax~~~

~Elle + Adlie = 4eVa~

Fnally~~~

I'm finnaly in relationship nw!!!!
wooohooooo!!!!
haha...

How sweet for dat...
really thank God so much...
now im so happy wit him...
Though c live so far apart,
but my heart is always be with him..

Now i even much more happier than laz time...
after he stepped into my life,
I have no more worries...
my sadness r gone...
my hardness r gone as well....

Wat makes even happier is dat he has so many similarities wit me...
he loves music n so do i...
he loves purple n so do i...
he loves emo n so do i...
he loves me...n so do i love him!!!!
and v hav d favourite song as well too...
haha...

i love u so much dear!!!



~Elle+A=43Va~~~

The Loving Memories of Grandma~

Tomorrow tomorrow and tomorrow...

Seconds by seconds, a minute passed...
Minutes by minutes, an hour passed....
Hours by hours, a day passed...
Days by days, a week passed...
Weeks by weeks, a month passed...
Months by months, a year passed...




and finally...





Years by years,
human lives gone...



From now on,
our family will gonna missing something...
Something that could light up the darkness in our heart....
And that thing is a voice...
The most cheerful voice...


The voice of my beloved grandma...





She likes scolding people since I was very young...
She likes to pluck off teeth for her granchildren...
She likes to talk bad about her grandchildren infront of every relatives...





Last time I used to hate her...
But now,
I regret....



Because..



All the words that comes out from her mouth,
its all for our own good...



She talks bad about her grandchildren infront of relatives,
because she wants us to feel the shame and not to repeat the same mistakes again!!!



She likes to pluck off the teeth of her grandchildren,
because she don't want us to waste money to see a dentist!!!!






My grandma is a very brave woman...
She has no fear in her life...
I saw her arguing with a guy at a road side when i was about in primary school...(i cant remember arguing for what)


She dares to fight for her disease eventhough it is very risky for her...
She dares to face the fate that comes to her...






Many people in our family members don't really like her I think...
Due to her attitude,
the way she talked,
they way she act,
the way she treat us...





But...





They don't know what is the BIGGEST sacrifice that she had done for her children n grandchildren....
Until yesterday morning during the funeral ceremony time only everyone starts to regret...
Everyone starts to cry..Including me...



But...
Its too late already...
Time had passed....
Life has gone...



Now what we had to do is to be strong...
No matter what also,
we still had to grant her last will...



Which is...
The most important is to take care of our grandpa...


and...



The whole family had to be united...
"A swollen bannana can cause that whole bannana unedible"....
This is what she always hope..


Although her body is no longer here,
but her soul are always in our heart,
and our memories....





Thank you God for bringing my grandma Home..
May God bless grandma Rest in Peace....





~EmO eLLe~