The Loving Memories of Grandma~

Tomorrow tomorrow and tomorrow...

Seconds by seconds, a minute passed...
Minutes by minutes, an hour passed....
Hours by hours, a day passed...
Days by days, a week passed...
Weeks by weeks, a month passed...
Months by months, a year passed...




and finally...





Years by years,
human lives gone...



From now on,
our family will gonna missing something...
Something that could light up the darkness in our heart....
And that thing is a voice...
The most cheerful voice...


The voice of my beloved grandma...





She likes scolding people since I was very young...
She likes to pluck off teeth for her granchildren...
She likes to talk bad about her grandchildren infront of every relatives...





Last time I used to hate her...
But now,
I regret....



Because..



All the words that comes out from her mouth,
its all for our own good...



She talks bad about her grandchildren infront of relatives,
because she wants us to feel the shame and not to repeat the same mistakes again!!!



She likes to pluck off the teeth of her grandchildren,
because she don't want us to waste money to see a dentist!!!!






My grandma is a very brave woman...
She has no fear in her life...
I saw her arguing with a guy at a road side when i was about in primary school...(i cant remember arguing for what)


She dares to fight for her disease eventhough it is very risky for her...
She dares to face the fate that comes to her...






Many people in our family members don't really like her I think...
Due to her attitude,
the way she talked,
they way she act,
the way she treat us...





But...





They don't know what is the BIGGEST sacrifice that she had done for her children n grandchildren....
Until yesterday morning during the funeral ceremony time only everyone starts to regret...
Everyone starts to cry..Including me...



But...
Its too late already...
Time had passed....
Life has gone...



Now what we had to do is to be strong...
No matter what also,
we still had to grant her last will...



Which is...
The most important is to take care of our grandpa...


and...



The whole family had to be united...
"A swollen bannana can cause that whole bannana unedible"....
This is what she always hope..


Although her body is no longer here,
but her soul are always in our heart,
and our memories....





Thank you God for bringing my grandma Home..
May God bless grandma Rest in Peace....





~EmO eLLe~

This 3months are the most suffering months for me..

This 3months are the most suffering months for me..
Haiz...

I'll be so lonely in this coming 3months starting from today onwards..
This is not so improtant...
I just worry about my beloved k didi....
He just went to the bloody NS this morning...
I missed him so much...

I'm afraid he is lonely there...
I'm sure he needs some one to accompany...
He has no friends there yet...
He was forced to cut his beautiful hair...

Really such a SUCKERS for those m*l*y*s people...
Forcing people to join this nonsense activity and yet still wanted to force people to cut their hair to botak...
FUCK those kind of people who are BRAINLESS!!!!!

I'm so heart-pain to see my k didi....
I really wanted to cry out...
Yet I can't do anything for him...Haiz.....

I'll always pray for his safety and I'll try to contact him as much as possible...
I love him so much as he love me as well...
I wanted to comfort him when he needs some one to talk...
I don't mind also if he find his lover to talk to...
As long as he is accompanied by some one I know,
then I'll be chilled already...

I promise to find him once he comes back home...
I'll do what I'd promised...
I love u didi...T.T

~sAd EmO eLLe~

Wanna look for a partner...haiz...

So many people who are close to me now already have their own relationships...

My friend, my workmates, my classmates, my bro, my k bros...
Only me that are still alone...


I'm really lonely...
Sometimes I saw their relationship are so sweet,
I'll thought back about the time I had...



I feel so jelous about them...
Sometimes I do think not to disturb their sweet time...
Sometimes I'm moody...



I'm really sad...
I'd been single for almost 5months...
The previous relationship I had was just a month...
I'm not satisfied with it...


How come people want to dump me...
I just don't understand in this way...

Why????


Is not that I want to break with them...
But is THEY who want to break....
I really want a relationship now...
A long term relationship until i reach the age of 25...


I might be selfish in this way...
But at least I wish to try,


Before it is too late....

~sAd EmO eLLe~

hw cum all those "kind" of ppl r so damn selfish????!!!!

hw cum all those "kind" of ppl r so damn selfish????!!!!
he is totally such a madafaking bitch n d worst ppl on earth!!!

usually when he wanna do his thing time he will delay d time...
while when v wanna do our things time,
he kept on resisting us frm staying....

den when v wanna do sumting,
he dun wanna tell properly 1st wan...
evrytime oso like dat...
dis is not the 1st time of all...
moz of evry1 has knwn his "pattern"...
smile infront of you,
pierce u frm the bck..

owits insult ppl wit his knwoledge that he is better than us..
think dat he very great...
MY ARSE la!!!!

i bet d whole world oso dun like dis kinda ppl...
thats y i said that "kind" of ppl r very selfish...
dis had been proven not oni him,
but ther is another guy r oso d same....

~Emo eLLe~

I am totallu disappointed on u!!! =1(2)+1(2)+3(7)+3(6)+2(6)x3(2)+2(4)+3(4)+2(6)

I loved him so much with full of my heart...
I always do the best for him...
Keep on thinking where I'm weak for him....
so that i could make him happy....

I'm always thinking,
I'm still missing out of what...
To make him feel comfort with me...

I put myself into his heart,
supporting him day by day....
Preparing myself,
when he needs comfort from me...

I'd even prayed for him,
days before his exam,
days before the results come out,
and days when I want him to be safe....

I even planned to skip my work just to find and meet him..

but...

End up with a disappointment....
I'd rather sacrifice for him,
but nw I think that I'm really stupid....

He'd made me felt so disappointed...
Alot of disappointment....
I tried to forgive and forget....

but now...

I'd reached out the limit....
I need a rest now....
I don't want anymore nonsense from him....

but I'm still not SATISFIED with that!!!!!
I don't SATISFIED is why he rather to dump me aside just for a BLOODY GUY that he LOVE???!!!!!!

WHY???!!!!!!!!

I'm very NOT SATISFIED!!!!!!!

I HATE YOU SO MUCH!!!=1(2)+1(2)+3(7)+3(6)+2(6) x 3(2)+2(4)+3(4)+2(6)

sAd EmO eLLe

Wish before 25....

It had been so long...

since after the month of october...

i'd b single in my life till now...

sumtimes i felt sad,

but sumtimes i felt happy....

sad bcoz of no 1 wants me...

happy bcoz of i still hav my frenz n fellow classmates...

although they sumtimes dun bother me,

but most of d time v had fun...

i knw sumtimes they oso nid their privacy,

n dats y i'd learned not 2 b so selfish....

yes i do very selfish,

but i'm trying 2 change evrything...

i nid sum time 2 change,

so dat i could treat them better in future...

if i found a lover now,

i'll be appreciate 4 it..

i'm open minded 4 him,

as long as he has the trust on me...

dis is wat i request for my life,

b4 im 25 years old....

~没人爱的Elle仔~

The Power of Psychic..xP

hahaha...speechless...xP