This 3months are the most suffering months for me..

This 3months are the most suffering months for me..
Haiz...

I'll be so lonely in this coming 3months starting from today onwards..
This is not so improtant...
I just worry about my beloved k didi....
He just went to the bloody NS this morning...
I missed him so much...

I'm afraid he is lonely there...
I'm sure he needs some one to accompany...
He has no friends there yet...
He was forced to cut his beautiful hair...

Really such a SUCKERS for those m*l*y*s people...
Forcing people to join this nonsense activity and yet still wanted to force people to cut their hair to botak...
FUCK those kind of people who are BRAINLESS!!!!!

I'm so heart-pain to see my k didi....
I really wanted to cry out...
Yet I can't do anything for him...Haiz.....

I'll always pray for his safety and I'll try to contact him as much as possible...
I love him so much as he love me as well...
I wanted to comfort him when he needs some one to talk...
I don't mind also if he find his lover to talk to...
As long as he is accompanied by some one I know,
then I'll be chilled already...

I promise to find him once he comes back home...
I'll do what I'd promised...
I love u didi...T.T

~sAd EmO eLLe~

Wanna look for a partner...haiz...

So many people who are close to me now already have their own relationships...

My friend, my workmates, my classmates, my bro, my k bros...
Only me that are still alone...


I'm really lonely...
Sometimes I saw their relationship are so sweet,
I'll thought back about the time I had...



I feel so jelous about them...
Sometimes I do think not to disturb their sweet time...
Sometimes I'm moody...



I'm really sad...
I'd been single for almost 5months...
The previous relationship I had was just a month...
I'm not satisfied with it...


How come people want to dump me...
I just don't understand in this way...

Why????


Is not that I want to break with them...
But is THEY who want to break....
I really want a relationship now...
A long term relationship until i reach the age of 25...


I might be selfish in this way...
But at least I wish to try,


Before it is too late....

~sAd EmO eLLe~

hw cum all those "kind" of ppl r so damn selfish????!!!!

hw cum all those "kind" of ppl r so damn selfish????!!!!
he is totally such a madafaking bitch n d worst ppl on earth!!!

usually when he wanna do his thing time he will delay d time...
while when v wanna do our things time,
he kept on resisting us frm staying....

den when v wanna do sumting,
he dun wanna tell properly 1st wan...
evrytime oso like dat...
dis is not the 1st time of all...
moz of evry1 has knwn his "pattern"...
smile infront of you,
pierce u frm the bck..

owits insult ppl wit his knwoledge that he is better than us..
think dat he very great...
MY ARSE la!!!!

i bet d whole world oso dun like dis kinda ppl...
thats y i said that "kind" of ppl r very selfish...
dis had been proven not oni him,
but ther is another guy r oso d same....

~Emo eLLe~

I am totallu disappointed on u!!! =1(2)+1(2)+3(7)+3(6)+2(6)x3(2)+2(4)+3(4)+2(6)

I loved him so much with full of my heart...
I always do the best for him...
Keep on thinking where I'm weak for him....
so that i could make him happy....

I'm always thinking,
I'm still missing out of what...
To make him feel comfort with me...

I put myself into his heart,
supporting him day by day....
Preparing myself,
when he needs comfort from me...

I'd even prayed for him,
days before his exam,
days before the results come out,
and days when I want him to be safe....

I even planned to skip my work just to find and meet him..

but...

End up with a disappointment....
I'd rather sacrifice for him,
but nw I think that I'm really stupid....

He'd made me felt so disappointed...
Alot of disappointment....
I tried to forgive and forget....

but now...

I'd reached out the limit....
I need a rest now....
I don't want anymore nonsense from him....

but I'm still not SATISFIED with that!!!!!
I don't SATISFIED is why he rather to dump me aside just for a BLOODY GUY that he LOVE???!!!!!!

WHY???!!!!!!!!

I'm very NOT SATISFIED!!!!!!!

I HATE YOU SO MUCH!!!=1(2)+1(2)+3(7)+3(6)+2(6) x 3(2)+2(4)+3(4)+2(6)

sAd EmO eLLe

Wish before 25....

It had been so long...

since after the month of october...

i'd b single in my life till now...

sumtimes i felt sad,

but sumtimes i felt happy....

sad bcoz of no 1 wants me...

happy bcoz of i still hav my frenz n fellow classmates...

although they sumtimes dun bother me,

but most of d time v had fun...

i knw sumtimes they oso nid their privacy,

n dats y i'd learned not 2 b so selfish....

yes i do very selfish,

but i'm trying 2 change evrything...

i nid sum time 2 change,

so dat i could treat them better in future...

if i found a lover now,

i'll be appreciate 4 it..

i'm open minded 4 him,

as long as he has the trust on me...

dis is wat i request for my life,

b4 im 25 years old....

~没人爱的Elle仔~

The Power of Psychic..xP

hahaha...speechless...xP

Hoping to find someone who could care on me,love me, and stay with me untill I'm 25 years old.

I know this sounds stupid...
But this is what I am...

Now I'm really damn emo...
So long...I've been waited...
But no one wants me...
haiz...
Is it whether I look ugly or dull??
The longest relationship I'd ever had was just one month...
It couldn't be any longer...
I just want to find a true love, where I and him can stay togetther for a long term..
I don't request so much...just for 6 years will do...
Not forever....
But why i couldn't???
I'm very hurt when I see couples walking passed by me...

Many PLU's cannot be trusted...
This is what I'm afraid of too...
I wanna find someone who are matured enough,who had the same mind thinking as mine, and who can tolerate with me without any arguements to be my partner...

But,
I think it will be very hard for me to find one...
May be I'll never have a chance also...
haiz...

I don't wanna be single now...
At least give me a try....
haiz...



~EmO eLLe (o.O)~